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HAHA! Mine said that to me last night too "But you've been on it for weeks before. In fact once was about 5 months!"

I just looked at him as if to say "Ha!"
 
Anyway Day 11.

B - Vanilla latte, 650ml hot water/peppermint tea
L - pancake/oatmeal, egg, cuppa tea (500ml) and some mulled wine hot drink (400ml)
D - choc shake , 500 ml water with flavouring, 400ml cuppa tea
Treat: Can coke zero 330ml

Total fluid intake: 2450ml plus coke zero.

Will probably have another hot drink approx 400- 500ml before bed, otherwise I've found I get really thirst in the morning.

Not so good, I ate 6 Jaffa cakes. One was a slip, granted but then I thought may as well have the two. Then I had another one. Can't leave it on 3. Then my wee boy gave me his..... etc.

Oh well. That's a good 35g of carbs right there.
 
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I'M IN! BY ALMOST BUT NOT QUITE A WHOLE POUND!!!

Bodes great things for Monday's weigh in.
 
Yay well done on getting into the 14s I'm hoping to see that myself this weekend :)
It's a great feeling isn't it to see a whole new number on the scales?
 
Stay focused MamaC.

We'll both be the 14st twins ;)
 
RIGHT. Bought myself a pair of size 12 shorts for £1.

I will try them on monthly and see how we're getting on, then fortnightly, then weekly.

I will post pics of the offending shorts as we go. Here goes nothing! Be prepared to see my in my pants. You have been warned ;)
 
So it's now 94 days til the wedding. That's 47lbs away.

Goal for tonight: Drink more water/less coke zero.
 
So one can coke zero last night opposed to the 1litres plus I drank the night before.

Was very VERY hungry this morning. Deviated from plan and had a nibble of some pumpkin seeds on way home. Not that they made me less hungry - lesson learned. I don't need to nibble.

Official weigh in is tomorrow but it's also after 3.5 hours sleep and 3rd nightshift in a row - not sure how the scales will reflect how I'm doing after that.

I'm tired. I always struggle more with eating well/on plan when I'm tired. Had to get husband to remove son's 'egg in a cup' from me earlier because I was going to eat it. No chance of anything like a decent sleep.

Am debating not weighing in tomorrow. I know I shouldn't focus on what the scales say, but if it's a bad result I don't know if I can stick in there for the rest of my NS's until Monday morning and the temptation is there to say 'I'll start again on Friday once I've had NS out of the way'.

On the other hand I'm GUARANTEED to be in the 14st bracket. Which would be a huge spur on. And in as little as 3 weeks I could be into the 13's.

I'm going to re-read my Beck chapter tonight. Make my cards. Stay IN. THE. ZONE.

If I keep talking myself out of staying on track I'm going to stay fat and miserable. It stops. Now.
 
Having a very hard night at work - read my Beck book. Hung in there.

I can do this.

Weigh in: 14st 11lbs!
 
Yay to being in the 14s!
 
Very happy to be in the 14's.

Have promised myself a massage if I get into the 13's in 3 weeks. I was 14stone 10 this morning, so 3 weeks to lose 11lbs. Completely doable if I keep my head on.

I have been trying to 'credit' myself as Beck suggests. I've always thought that I wasn't really terribly critical of myself, reading Beck it would appear I can be rather hard on myself and use my weight to delay things I want to do/reward myself with.

So wrote out my affirmations last night.

I don't want to embarrass my husband and son
I want to look nice for this wedding in July
I want my PCOS under control
I want to go to the Dr with a problem and be LISTENED to rather than told to go lose weight
I want another baby
SEX!!
I want to look nice
I don't want to look greedy when out at restaurants
I don't want to keep buying the same crappy clothes I wear just now, because what I want to wear doesn't look right on me at this size.
So Beck: Week 1 tasks. Write out affirmations, read twice a day. I'll read them on Nightshift during my break and then in the morning when I' up.

Also - when I have time I'm going to get scrapping with pics of all the stuff I want to wear to motivate me.
 
This morning I am giving myself credit:

I stayed on plan.
I only had my packs
I was firm in my resolve last night.
Didn't snack or pick in the car.

:D
 
Well that credit didn't last for long did it.

Just had a very thick slice of gammon that was lurking in the fridge. Can't even remember why or what I went in for.

So no 4th pack for today - will count it as my protein for the day and wait until midnight for my new day to begin. Am night shift again.

I always fine this so hard when I'm on nights. I need to get my game face on and knuckle down. I bought a dress for this wedding in a size 14.

I NEED IT TO FIT. I WILL NOT TURN UP TO THIS WEDDING FAT.
 
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