MarianH
Full Member
I need to write a diary of this as I need to keep encouraging myself to keep going when life tries to thwart me.
I casually restarted WW on January 6th. I say casually because I saw I could get most of the fees back, so figured it was worth it for a couple of pounds. I don't even know if I intended to do it properly.
I put on 3st last year (and I was already overweight), and battling depression and anxiety, life has been in turmoil. My daughter has cancer - leukaemia - she was diagnosed last January and she still has a year of treatment to go. It has been really, really tough and I freely admit that I have eaten my emotions about it all rather than crying and sharing. It's not a healthy way to handle things; getting even heavier has just made me feel even more rubbish.
Since my flippant restart, I've actually managed to get into it properly. I've made a combination attack by using Paul McKenna's CD on an evening, combined with pointing and getting some exercise. I'm down 1st so far with another 3 and a half to go.
We have had a few scares recently and these throw me very much off balance. They make me want to eat. This is why I thought writing here might help me to focus on something else. This is me venting.
I also agreed to try to restart work next week after over a year off. Financially, we need me to work, and daughter is at a stage where she can do partial school hours. I said I would before her last funny turn, and I'm going to have a go. We need the money and I need the change. I'm not sure how well it will go, I just need to get through next week without hitting the biscuits.
I'm going to get my hair coloured today. I look so haggard at the moment. I thought it might make me feel a bit better about myself.
Tough times. As my title says, it HAS to get better.
I casually restarted WW on January 6th. I say casually because I saw I could get most of the fees back, so figured it was worth it for a couple of pounds. I don't even know if I intended to do it properly.
I put on 3st last year (and I was already overweight), and battling depression and anxiety, life has been in turmoil. My daughter has cancer - leukaemia - she was diagnosed last January and she still has a year of treatment to go. It has been really, really tough and I freely admit that I have eaten my emotions about it all rather than crying and sharing. It's not a healthy way to handle things; getting even heavier has just made me feel even more rubbish.
Since my flippant restart, I've actually managed to get into it properly. I've made a combination attack by using Paul McKenna's CD on an evening, combined with pointing and getting some exercise. I'm down 1st so far with another 3 and a half to go.
We have had a few scares recently and these throw me very much off balance. They make me want to eat. This is why I thought writing here might help me to focus on something else. This is me venting.
I also agreed to try to restart work next week after over a year off. Financially, we need me to work, and daughter is at a stage where she can do partial school hours. I said I would before her last funny turn, and I'm going to have a go. We need the money and I need the change. I'm not sure how well it will go, I just need to get through next week without hitting the biscuits.
I'm going to get my hair coloured today. I look so haggard at the moment. I thought it might make me feel a bit better about myself.
Tough times. As my title says, it HAS to get better.
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