Lost & Found... Map Gone AWOL!

Oh Katy you have been through the mill while I've been away. Just caught up with your diary now. Brilliant advice from people too, really helpful for me as well.
The bingeing thing I understand so well, but I did it when I was fat sometimes, much less so lately.
I wonder why some of us seem to come equipped with a 'self destruct' button?

Big hugs, xx
 
Thanks Bess. I really thought I had this beaten, so scary to have this wobble and come so close to major mess-up. KD is a star, she and others have dragged me back from the brink, truly. Two days of normal eating now. That is a start. Today will be a third... starting to feel calmer and this time gonna stay in that place and not derail.

Happy Monday, everyone!

xxx
 
Just eating lunch.... three oatcakes & peanut butter & a CD hot choc. Feel full with the oatcakes which is a major breakthrough... over last weeks, no amount of anything was making me feel full. Like someone switched off the 'off' button! I feel better Sunshine, determined today will be checked off as another 'normal' day. Will readjust ticker too to set goal back at 11, and stop worrying about the last 7lbs. If it happens great, if not, not. Hope this means the fog in my head is clearing, it seems like progress.

Have a great day too, Sunshine.

xxx
 
Hope this means the fog in my head is clearing, it seems like progress.
Well done katy sound like you are doing well. Bread is a big trigger for me too and to leave it is a great achievement. Maybe not worrying about the last 7lbs has really helped too, once the pressure is off it makes it easier. Scale numbers are all in our head. My OH kindly asked what difference half a stone would make to me and he bet that I would physically look the same.......cheers:mad:! He was actually trying to help but all we tend to see is the figures on the scales. Hope today is a good one x
 
I love bread. It is part of my genetic make up and if you cut me in half, it would say "white loaf, chunky cut".
Buuuut, it doesnt always like me, it bloats me if I have too much of it and I agree that it can push me into eat more crap/binge mode.
I love it but it wont rule me. Damn you!!! :D
 
Thanks Julie & Jellytot! Sleepy, if you chopped me in half I would be chocolate through and through... or once upon a time I would have. Interesting that even in the recent binges, it was biscuits & bread & jam rather than choc (most of the time). I still suspect my blood is 75% melted choc ganache!

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Hey Katy, glad you doing good at the moment. Read through your diary and great to see you are getting through the days well and that the fog is clearing.

I think if you cut me in half I would be cheddar cheese (with mayo) and of course you need bread & butter with that ;) Funny when I went to see an acupuncturist she said she could see my cheese addiction written all over my body (must've had a Cathederal Cheddar packet stuck to my shoe!)
 
Thanks for your post Katy, You're doing great! such an inspiration, small steps and one day at a time, a good moto for all!
 
Don't come near me then; you wouldn't get out alive!!!

Seriously, well done on getting on track. It's not easy if your head's not in the right place and it sounds like you've spent a lot of time getting your head sorted lately :)

I still suspect my blood is 75% melted choc ganache!

xxx
 
Well done Katy, you are doing really well, the more days you have that are normal the easier it will get (hopefully, in theory anyway).... I manage my day fine until I eat with everyone else, I always have to have seconds, although I must admit I dont take a huge plateful the first time, in fact probably about the same amount my 6 year old eats... lol
Thanks for the PM, a quick kick up the backside to get me posting again.... have a good evening x
 
Awww... Wales, thanks for posting! You made me laugh out loud with the cheese & mayo butty!

Hi Angela... you are doing great too, don't let a tiny setback get to you... you are brave for reading my diary, but if nothing else it should be a warning never to take your eye off the ball!

Liz, laughing again... not sure if I have my head sorted out, but at least I have a chance of doing that if the fog has cleared. I still have the work to do to actually learn from what happened, but I will do my best.

Greeneyes, good to see you back hon. I think you are probably doing fine... seconds are probably OK if the portions are small and the food healthy. CD gives us a real awareness of what we eat once we go on to maintain... and often even when we 'overeat' it is not as bad as it would have been in the past. It's about getting a balance and finding a pattern of eating that fits with our lives.

Blimey, I feel sooooo much better.

xxx
 
Today.... another tick on the list, making three 'normal' eating days. Yay!!!

Brekky: porridge, berries, 0% yog
lunch: 3 oatcakes & peanut butter, CD hot choc
snack: CD bar
tea: quorn, spinach, broad beans, sprouts & chopped tomatoes with 1 slice wholemeal bread, no butter; lowfat Shape yog.

Feel full, feel like my brain is working properly again. So much of my wobble was to do with my head, which is such a scary thought. How do I predict this and stop it happening again? Food for thought.

xxx
 
I think it's hard to predict, but maybe it gets easier to deal with over time. It should give you confidence that you've come through it, which is a feat in itself!
 
Yes, recognise the symptoms again and you will deal with it. Be proud of yourself that you only had a few days of wobbling and didnt go into a few weeks/months/years of wobbling. THAT, me dear, is progress!! xxx
 
Forgot to say, I also had a brisk 40 min walk with dog, as it was a dry day... yay indeed!

In other news, builders have come to replace front bit of roof. They have put scaffolding in front of house & practically barricaded me in the house... seriously, you have to be slim to squeeze out along side of scaffolding. Think they are trying to trap me in house until I finish my work... but ha, I escaped! Lot of house stuff going on over coming weeks, have put biccies in tin for builders, I need to make sure I stay well away from it.

xxx
 
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