Determined Girl
Here's hoping
Hey gang,
Well as you all know I've had a few 'down' moments this last week but I think today I've turned a bit of a corner.
I was just coming home from the gym and as I was coming down the drive I was just smiling. It hit me that I'm becoming happy. I mean I'm always this 'happy' person to be around...but 99% of the time I'm unhappy with me.
I was thinking about an ex of mine who I've been hung up on for a long time and I thought 'if he meets someone...good for him...let it go' and I realised that I'm moving on with my life in so many ways.
I'm HAPPY to be losing weight. Maybe the last few weeks I've not lost quite as much as I'd hoped...but I'm in CONTROL- and that hasn't been the case in YEARS. I'm doing this for ME. Not for a man, not for anyone else but ME. What a feeling!!! It occurred to me...is this what most other people feel ALL the time? What a great feeling!
It just felt so surprising...and so wondeful that I had to come on here and ramble. I know LT has its critics- but a month ago I was a binge eating bullimic who was desperately unhappy and felt like nothing was ever going to change- that my life was stuck in a rut of unhappiness...and now...it feels like my life is changing in so many ways.
I'm getting slimmer...I'm going to the gym. I'm finding I enjoy saying 'no' and I'm understanding (finally) that I've been punishing myself for YEARS by over-eating and feeling unhappy.
I guess none of this makes sense...but...I just feel...content. And man oh man...that feels GOOD!
xx
Well as you all know I've had a few 'down' moments this last week but I think today I've turned a bit of a corner.
I was just coming home from the gym and as I was coming down the drive I was just smiling. It hit me that I'm becoming happy. I mean I'm always this 'happy' person to be around...but 99% of the time I'm unhappy with me.
I was thinking about an ex of mine who I've been hung up on for a long time and I thought 'if he meets someone...good for him...let it go' and I realised that I'm moving on with my life in so many ways.
I'm HAPPY to be losing weight. Maybe the last few weeks I've not lost quite as much as I'd hoped...but I'm in CONTROL- and that hasn't been the case in YEARS. I'm doing this for ME. Not for a man, not for anyone else but ME. What a feeling!!! It occurred to me...is this what most other people feel ALL the time? What a great feeling!
It just felt so surprising...and so wondeful that I had to come on here and ramble. I know LT has its critics- but a month ago I was a binge eating bullimic who was desperately unhappy and felt like nothing was ever going to change- that my life was stuck in a rut of unhappiness...and now...it feels like my life is changing in so many ways.
I'm getting slimmer...I'm going to the gym. I'm finding I enjoy saying 'no' and I'm understanding (finally) that I've been punishing myself for YEARS by over-eating and feeling unhappy.
I guess none of this makes sense...but...I just feel...content. And man oh man...that feels GOOD!
xx