Blonde Logic
Yes. You can.
She is in there. 
Many of us have very similar stories. It is so easy to lose ourselves when we bury ourselves like we can do. It is very sad that we do that to ourselves - but you are definately not alone.
No one understand what being fat is like, except a fat - or ex-fat person.
You are going to get your life back. If you follow this, and make it mean more to you than just about anything - you will have your old self back, and you will have been through so much to get her - that you will never ever want to let her go.
Food for me, was a mode of protection, and comfort, and denial. There were things I just could not face. Or accept. Or feel. So I began to build my fortress of fat around myself, which kept everyone out. Only problem - it kept me in.
Being free from that, has been one of the greatest blessings of my life. I have so much more appreciation for who I am now....before, somewhere on the road of life I lost my confidence and belief in myself. And I had no appreciation. It was just as easy, if not easier to hurt and punish myself before someone else did. And did I!
I just turned 50. I put on loads of weight when I was 25. I spent half my life hating myself. That to me is very very sad. But - its in the past - and its a whole new life ahead. There will still be struggles and demons - this is not a magic wand - but it sure is a great foundation to regain a sense of self - and worth - and pride. Once you have those things, you can do just about anything you put your mind too.
If you want it bad enough - its yours.
<<<hugs>>>
x
Many of us have very similar stories. It is so easy to lose ourselves when we bury ourselves like we can do. It is very sad that we do that to ourselves - but you are definately not alone.
No one understand what being fat is like, except a fat - or ex-fat person.
You are going to get your life back. If you follow this, and make it mean more to you than just about anything - you will have your old self back, and you will have been through so much to get her - that you will never ever want to let her go.
Food for me, was a mode of protection, and comfort, and denial. There were things I just could not face. Or accept. Or feel. So I began to build my fortress of fat around myself, which kept everyone out. Only problem - it kept me in.
Being free from that, has been one of the greatest blessings of my life. I have so much more appreciation for who I am now....before, somewhere on the road of life I lost my confidence and belief in myself. And I had no appreciation. It was just as easy, if not easier to hurt and punish myself before someone else did. And did I!
I just turned 50. I put on loads of weight when I was 25. I spent half my life hating myself. That to me is very very sad. But - its in the past - and its a whole new life ahead. There will still be struggles and demons - this is not a magic wand - but it sure is a great foundation to regain a sense of self - and worth - and pride. Once you have those things, you can do just about anything you put your mind too.
If you want it bad enough - its yours.
<<<hugs>>>
x
