Aww Minerva xxx I know how you feel (that was me a few weeks ago) and it's bloody tough. It doesn't seem fair how your body reacts when you compare to what some bodies can lose on less restrictive diets. Maybe a less strict diet and introducing a good measure of exercise could be the way forward for you? That way even if your losses stay similar you will gain toning and muscle.
I went through a long spell of feeling like my body had let me down - not in relation to this diet though! I often experience slight paralysis on the right side of my body (most noticeably on my face). I've had every test under the sun done and the doctors still aren't sure why. I have gone through numerous bouts of severe depression (was hospitalised at one point). Sometimes I can't walk more than a few minutes without experiencing severe pain in my legs whilst other times I could walk for Ireland (again there's theories why from the doctors but nothing helps). I saw my body as working against me instead of for me. I felt "broken". Sometimes when my legs are so bad that I feel like they are about to snap off I still get down and angry at my body. Bodies don't always do what they should and sometimes (like with my legs and face) we never find out why. It frustrating. It's upsetting and even worrying. But take comfort in the fact that the weight IS coming off. Maybe your body needs less calories to function then is the norm? Have you been tested?
Aww, that sounds terrifying! You poor soul. *hugs* Is the condition something like:
Hypokalemic periodic paralysis: MedlinePlus Medical Encyclopedia ? Is it hereditary? Or is it linked to thyroid function?
I feel bad about complaining about myself now, seeing how much you've had to suffer with things... You're a lovely, bright and positive person... And very strong too! I know you've had a day off for Easter, but you seem to be right back on the wagon! One day off doesn't matter in all honesty - it's how you deal with it afterwards is what matters
And you're an example of SUCCESS! x
Ok finally finished reading all your diary, been reading on and off all day, and (WARNINg, compliment coming!) you are just as inspirational and amazing a lady As I remember 3 years ago! So pleased to see you are back here, and although things feel hard at the moment, you are so determind, so strong, so sure in your convictions, I admire that hugely! It makes me realise I am the same, although I have messed around since having my son along 2 years ago, I have never once given up on my goal to get 'heathly' again and regain the Same confidence you also lose when you gain weight! I crave that so badly! Day 2 for me and feeling so happy to be back in some form of control, although like you for the past year I have pretty much maintained my weight,but it is certainly not where I want it to be. So here I am, not having failed, but having let life cirsumstancrs stop me from achieving my hearts desire, well no more, time to put me first. I am a much happier person when silm and therefore everyone benefits from that, a few months without eating 'food' and here's to a slim summer, can't wait, let's just hope we have the weather to show off our new silm waists!!!! Xxxx
Your words made me blush!! I kept trying and messing around for the past 2-3 years until now, losing, gaining, losing, gaining, but it seems that I had to be truly READY and get my mind to the right place before I could even take a step in the right direction.
You are right, you have NOT failed, you're back with a vengeance!! I hope we can support each other and get to a healthier and happier 'us' again now that our minds and hearts have caught up!!
Don't worry too much about the councellors - do the exercises in the books, it could be helpful to really think about what it's trying to teach you. I always found that the main learning points came from the other members talking about their experiences rather than anything the LLC said. Go to the sessions for you, see how you get on, once the "routine" of having packs is under way in a few weeks, I am confident you can make the jump to independent VLCD'ing! There is nothing more liberating than knowing that you are doing this for YOU, no one needs to look over your shoulder to make sure you're doing it right...!
Hi there just popping in to say hi x I have had a read of your diary, you are doing so well xx I know it is coming off slowly but you are in control... I am well still JUDD ing I have not lost very much but I have not gained either and I am feeling a lot happier, keep going Hun x
I miss you!! I'm so glad to hear you're doing well with JuDDD. I hope everything is going well in your own life - oooh and it's summer soon!!
2 more months and then it'll be waarrrmmmm and you'll be wearing some gorgeous flowing dresses in the sunshiiine... feeling slim and beautiful!
Just popping in for a hug and to say hi. Hope youre ok, honey xx :hug99:
Heee, yes, I'm ok. Finished my essay, Copyright Law is pretty fascinating stuff!
I do enjoy writing essays, am I weird? How is Day 2 back on the packs for you?
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Right, so
Day 92 (I feel like I'm counting days in prison ...
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CONFESSION TIME!! Yesterday I was naughty.
BUT I wanted the day off, I had already decided a while ago that I would allow myself to do that (Game of Thrones season 3 started!). We invited a friend over to watch it and went and picked up some Nando's. I had a really nice bean burger and peri-chips. And a glass of a wine... and some other sugary pastry products that I shall not describe in detail. Lol. It's fascinating how quickly calories add up and how much we are likely to UNDERESTIMATE our consumption. I calculated roughly 4000 calories at the end of all that.
I blame my OH (and myself obviously) for overindulging on the pastries (he got happy from the wine... and trotted off to the shops)! He's one of those who sees no problem to devour a whole box of *something* in one sitting - lovely match I've found for myself !! (and no he's not magically able to eat and not put on weight... he battles with it as much as I do)
I can already tell, we'll be old and fat, but reasonably jolly in the future. We both love food a little too much!
I am not worried. I would only be worried if I started showing signs of compulsive / thoughtless behaviour. You know the type - when you feel you've lost control and you're just grabbing and stuffing in your mouth. That did not happen. Not yet. If I continued like this for another day or two - then the signs would come back.
So, back 100% on plan today, no problem. The only thing that REALLY struck me is the "sugar hangover". I put 3 lb overnight (obviously just temporary), and it feels as if there's tiny worms crawling under my skin everywhere. I feel very warm and dehydrated. Tomorrow it will pass. I hope this has done my body some good, to wake up from whatever plateau it got itself into. The calories were to excess (for sure!), but it'll average out.
That's me - essay out of the way, now for studying ... grargh. I hope you're all doing well!!
xx
