missemma's 10 stone journey

[Hannah2]

Wow! Well done on the running!!!

I was going to the gym for 6 months up to Dec last year on a scheme run here if your BMI is over 45 - you get a personal trainer for 2 sessions a week and open access to local authority classes/health centres. Unfortunately after that 6 months they drop you like a brick and dont want to know which is rather short sighted in my opinion - especially as my BMI was still just over 45 at the end of the 6months! They do follow up measurement sessions but at my last one I found out that i am the only one that bothered to show up - kind of proves my point that 6 months then dropping all support does not work!

Anyway, sorry, didnt mean to rant on your diary! What I was going to say was that I was starting to run on the treadmill - kind of doing C25K my own way and was running for 8 x 1 min (doesnt sound a lot I know!) but that stopped when the support stopped. I did join a private gym but after Christmas I didnt go, not sure why! Been paying the £31 a month and not using it - STUPID!!!!!! Anyway, have now started going back but just swimming at the moment - maybe this weekend I will venture back into the gym!!!!

I realised that having that trainer with me in the gym was more than just training support, it was a mask to hide behind, something to focus on to take my fears and worries and insecurities and set them aside - so that I didnt notice anyone else in the gym apart from the trainer. Without her there I found it very hard to trust myself and have the confidence to be in there without worrying about being watched or feeling embarassed. I know that most people are just concentrating on their own session and not interested in little fat me, but it is hard to rely on that when you feel so lacking in confidence in the first place.

Would love to be able to say that I could run for 20 minutes and then do even more time on the bike after that without collapsing!!!!! Going to use that to push me to (maybe) get into that gym this weekend and see if I can still manage even 10 minutes on that bike!!!!!!

You should be really proud!

 

[missemma]

Wow! Well done on the running!!!

I was going to the gym for 6 months up to Dec last year on a scheme run here if your BMI is over 45 - you get a personal trainer for 2 sessions a week and open access to local authority classes/health centres. Unfortunately after that 6 months they drop you like a brick and dont want to know which is rather short sighted in my opinion - especially as my BMI was still just over 45 at the end of the 6months! They do follow up measurement sessions but at my last one I found out that i am the only one that bothered to show up - kind of proves my point that 6 months then dropping all support does not work!

Anyway, sorry, didnt mean to rant on your diary! What I was going to say was that I was starting to run on the treadmill - kind of doing C25K my own way and was running for 8 x 1 min (doesnt sound a lot I know!) but that stopped when the support stopped. I did join a private gym but after Christmas I didnt go, not sure why! Been paying the £31 a month and not using it - STUPID!!!!!! Anyway, have now started going back but just swimming at the moment - maybe this weekend I will venture back into the gym!!!!

I realised that having that trainer with me in the gym was more than just training support, it was a mask to hide behind, something to focus on to take my fears and worries and insecurities and set them aside - so that I didnt notice anyone else in the gym apart from the trainer. Without her there I found it very hard to trust myself and have the confidence to be in there without worrying about being watched or feeling embarassed. I know that most people are just concentrating on their own session and not interested in little fat me, but it is hard to rely on that when you feel so lacking in confidence in the first place.

Would love to be able to say that I could run for 20 minutes and then do even more time on the bike after that without collapsing!!!!! Going to use that to push me to (maybe) get into that gym this weekend and see if I can still manage even 10 minutes on that bike!!!!!!

You should be really proud!

You say 8 x 1 minute doesn't sound a lot but I think that's excellent. I did the C25K but like most things I stopped and started it, so now I'm just doing it off my own back and it's all about gradually building it up. 8 lots of 1 minute is a huge achievement, just think another 2 of them and you'd be able to do 10 minutes of running, even if it's not 10 minutes constant running it is the beginning of being able to do it. I found what helped me is going from 1 minute running then the next time seeing if I could increase that to 2 minutes, then 3 minutes and so on and so on, your body is very good at being able to adjust. I also found that I had set the running machine at something really fast because the person next to me was running at 9mph and I always thought this was the average, I've slowed it down now and go between 6.5-7 as this is the most comfortable for me so it's all about adjusting it to suit you.

I know exactly what you mean about the confidence thing, I was always the same, I never used to go by myself and would convince someone to come with me, however I'm past that now and you will get there too. The way I try to see it is yes there might be some skinny minnies in there in their lycra gear, all made up, but so what. They don't know me and I don't know them, if they want to judge me for being overweight and trying to do something about it then so be it, I'm not losing any sleep over small minded people. I have the worst ever gym outfit however the feeling of weightloss and aiming for a size 12 dress is giving me the motivation to go there. I go with my music loud and I focus on that little calorie counter going up telling me I've burnt XXX calories.

If you think about it this way £31 a month is a hell of a lot of money, so this Saturday get up and go to the gym, even if you go for 10 minutes just for your 10 x 1 minute runs or like you say to do 10 minutes on the bike you can do it missy, deep down you know you can. I'm happy for you to email me or message me whenever you're feeling down or lacking confidence, we are all here to support each other and we all know how you feel as we've all been there which is why this site is an awesome place to be

 

[missemma]

Righty ho, my plans for today seeing as it's my day off

Food - red day.

Breakfast - 2 weetabix (HEb) with 200mls semi skimmed milk (part of HEa) & strawberries. 50mls hot milk in a coffee (second part of HEa).
Lunch - 4 ryvita (HEb), low fat cottage cheese, cucumber, peppers & syn free yoghurt.
Tea - Chicken breast cooked with salad - lettuce, cucumber, tomato & peppers with syn free dressing. Probably a hot chocolate to get some syns in there.

Weighed myself this morning just to be nosey, I've been quite good recently at not weighing everyday and it said 13.4 so fingers crossed I can shift 1 more lb to get that back to 13.3, back on track for that 12 stone to be showing on my scales

I've been a domestic goddess this morning, tidied my whole room and washed my bed linen, got it drying now. The postman bought me some lovely (well lovely to me haha) gifts this morning consisting of 2 Mark Owen tickets and a waterproof jacket for my car as it's been leaking water from somewhere. My Dad took the car apart and cannot find out where the water is coming from and it's like a river in there, so it's got a nice little coat on now, providing the brats round here don't touch it, hopefully now I will have a dry car
Meeting up with a friend later for a coffee/tea xx

 

[Charleybarley]

Hey Miss

How are you? I have just been catching up. You are really steaming along there aren't you? I have just recently gone back to the gym. I hate it, but I go and once I am done, I am glad I went. Well done for running, I would love to run but me poor old ankle won't let me ... hopefully I will get fixed and be able to, but it is a dream of mine to be able to run outside without stopping, I watch people doing it and I am really envious, they look...free. I wanna be free!!!

Have a loverly day orf.

x

 

[missemma]

Hey Miss

How are you? I have just been catching up. You are really steaming along there aren't you? I have just recently gone back to the gym. I hate it, but I go and once I am done, I am glad I went. Well done for running, I would love to run but me poor old ankle won't let me ... hopefully I will get fixed and be able to, but it is a dream of mine to be able to run outside without stopping, I watch people doing it and I am really envious, they look...free. I wanna be free!!!

Have a loverly day orf.

x

Hello my dear, all good here thank you, how are you? Just sitting on my bed at the moment pondering getting up to make lunch & watching the pouring rain from the comfort of my bed.
I'm the same, dread that feeling of going to the gym but when I come out I always feel so good you'll get there eventually missy xx

 

[Hannah2]

You say 8 x 1 minute doesn't sound a lot but I think that's excellent. I did the C25K but like most things I stopped and started it, so now I'm just doing it off my own back and it's all about gradually building it up. 8 lots of 1 minute is a huge achievement, just think another 2 of them and you'd be able to do 10 minutes of running, even if it's not 10 minutes constant running it is the beginning of being able to do it. I found what helped me is going from 1 minute running then the next time seeing if I could increase that to 2 minutes, then 3 minutes and so on and so on, your body is very good at being able to adjust. I also found that I had set the running machine at something really fast because the person next to me was running at 9mph and I always thought this was the average, I've slowed it down now and go between 6.5-7 as this is the most comfortable for me so it's all about adjusting it to suit you.

I know exactly what you mean about the confidence thing, I was always the same, I never used to go by myself and would convince someone to come with me, however I'm past that now and you will get there too. The way I try to see it is yes there might be some skinny minnies in there in their lycra gear, all made up, but so what. They don't know me and I don't know them, if they want to judge me for being overweight and trying to do something about it then so be it, I'm not losing any sleep over small minded people. I have the worst ever gym outfit however the feeling of weightloss and aiming for a size 12 dress is giving me the motivation to go there. I go with my music loud and I focus on that little calorie counter going up telling me I've burnt XXX calories.

If you think about it this way £31 a month is a hell of a lot of money, so this Saturday get up and go to the gym, even if you go for 10 minutes just for your 10 x 1 minute runs or like you say to do 10 minutes on the bike you can do it missy, deep down you know you can. I'm happy for you to email me or message me whenever you're feeling down or lacking confidence, we are all here to support each other and we all know how you feel as we've all been there which is why this site is an awesome place to be

Oh god, ok, I admit it, you set me off crying again........... people walking past my office are going to wonder what is going on!

...... thank you for your support and I may just take you up on that offer!

I am well jealous that you have some tickets in your hand - I had an email to say that mine have been dispatched so you never know, they may arrive tomorrow - I cant believe that we will be there in 17 days!!!!!!

Are you staying over in Sheffield? Did you say you were going as a group of 4? It will be weird that the concert is the day before the release of the album - wont be able to listen to it before going.

Right, best crack on with some work but thank you for your kind words of support and yes...... I make a promise that I will go to the gym this weekend..... you can hold me to it!!!!!!!

 

[missemma]

Oh god, ok, I admit it, you set me off crying again........... people walking past my office are going to wonder what is going on!

...... thank you for your support and I may just take you up on that offer!

I am well jealous that you have some tickets in your hand - I had an email to say that mine have been dispatched so you never know, they may arrive tomorrow - I cant believe that we will be there in 17 days!!!!!!

Are you staying over in Sheffield? Did you say you were going as a group of 4? It will be weird that the concert is the day before the release of the album - wont be able to listen to it before going.

Right, best crack on with some work but thank you for your kind words of support and yes...... I make a promise that I will go to the gym this weekend..... you can hold me to it!!!!!!!

I hope the crying was good tears and that I didn't upset you!? And any support I can give you just let me know. I like to say if I can lose weight than anyone can. You may be lacking confidence now but just think when you start feeling good about yourself (and that will happen I promise) then you'll regret not going to the gym sooner just because of some morons, go go go & get that confidence sooner

I'm not staying in Sheffield, we are driving up and driving home as we have work on the Monday, lunatics I tell thee. You'll be a little bit more jealous if I told you I saw Mark tonight, he's rehearsing in a studio 10 minutes from my flat so popped up to say hello, lovely little man he is <3 xx

 

[missemma]

Food update:

Lunch was - 4 ryvita (HEb), cottage cheese with 1 syn light pesto mixed in, cucumber & pepper sticks. Strawberries dipped in yoghurt.
1/2 syn for a splash of milk in a costa tea.
Dinner was ham & salad - lettuce, cucumber, pepper & tomato with 1 syn of 70% less fat salad cream.
Danio yoghurt 1 syn.

I might have a hot choc for a further 2 syns.
Total syns = 5.5

 

[MissNix]

Food all sounds lovely, hope you've had a good day! x

 

[LauraLoo]

I hope the crying was good tears and that I didn't upset you!? And any support I can give you just let me know. I like to say if I can lose weight than anyone can. You may be lacking confidence now but just think when you start feeling good about yourself (and that will happen I promise) then you'll regret not going to the gym sooner just because of some morons, go go go & get that confidence sooner

I'm not staying in Sheffield, we are driving up and driving home as we have work on the Monday, lunatics I tell thee. You'll be a little bit more jealous if I told you I saw Mark tonight, he's rehearsing in a studio 10 minutes from my flat so popped up to say hello, lovely little man he is <3 xx

I used to actually be in love with Mark when Take That were first around. I'm well jel! Your food looks good today

 

[Hannah2]

I hope the crying was good tears and that I didn't upset you!? And any support I can give you just let me know. I like to say if I can lose weight than anyone can. You may be lacking confidence now but just think when you start feeling good about yourself (and that will happen I promise) then you'll regret not going to the gym sooner just because of some morons, go go go & get that confidence sooner

I'm not staying in Sheffield, we are driving up and driving home as we have work on the Monday, lunatics I tell thee. You'll be a little bit more jealous if I told you I saw Mark tonight, he's rehearsing in a studio 10 minutes from my flat so popped up to say hello, lovely little man he is <3 xx

You definitely didnt upset me! More the situation and the feeling that other people understand! Even at group most people "only" have a couple of stone to lose and although I know that doesnt necessarily make it easier for them I find it hard to relate/to believe that they can possibly understand what it is like to be this overweight and to be facing the need/want to lose more than 6 stone. I have just had a text to remind me that I am meant to be going to have my hair done tomorrow morning so now have to decide what to do re. gym as I dont want to go after having my hair done - what a waste! So, I either have to get up early and go to the gym before going to have my hair done or I go to the gym on Sunday but my worry with that is that I will keep putting it off! and I dont want to do that!

Do you mean you are driving back to London after the gig???? You are mad!!!!! I am going to stick my fingers in my ears and go "la la la la la" so I cant hear you telling me that you went to see Mark! Couldnt imagine actually going and meeting them!!!! I guess you are going to try and get to the front for the gig? I wont be able to cope with that but cant decide how early to get there so that we are not right at the back - how early are you going to queue? Hoping my tickets arrive today too.

 

[emma_partington27]

Happy friday ems. Gotta say im not a big fan ov mark :-/ giv me gary or robbie anyday lol i just think gary has got betta looking with age

 

[missemma]

You definitely didnt upset me! More the situation and the feeling that other people understand! Even at group most people "only" have a couple of stone to lose and although I know that doesnt necessarily make it easier for them I find it hard to relate/to believe that they can possibly understand what it is like to be this overweight and to be facing the need/want to lose more than 6 stone. I have just had a text to remind me that I am meant to be going to have my hair done tomorrow morning so now have to decide what to do re. gym as I dont want to go after having my hair done - what a waste! So, I either have to get up early and go to the gym before going to have my hair done or I go to the gym on Sunday but my worry with that is that I will keep putting it off! and I dont want to do that!

Do you mean you are driving back to London after the gig???? You are mad!!!!! I am going to stick my fingers in my ears and go "la la la la la" so I cant hear you telling me that you went to see Mark! Couldnt imagine actually going and meeting them!!!! I guess you are going to try and get to the front for the gig? I wont be able to cope with that but cant decide how early to get there so that we are not right at the back - how early are you going to queue? Hoping my tickets arrive today too.

Go before that way when you have your hair done & have been to the gym you'll feel doubly fabulous pictures of hair please missy

& yes driving back going to be so tired. Will try for front row as I do love being at the front. Not sure what time we will queue, maybe 10amish or there abouts. Did your tickets come? xx

Happy friday ems. Gotta say im not a big fan ov mark :-/ giv me gary or robbie anyday lol i just think gary has got betta looking with age

I love Robbie, he's my favourite. So handsome xx

 

[missemma]

Sorry I haven't posted all day have been manic! Work was mental but nice. Food has been good! I went to the gym after work, did 25 minutes treadmill and 15 of those were running. I upped the speed tonight from 6.5 to 7 so did a bit less in time but still pleased I was a bit quicker! Also did 20 minutes bike. Pleased I've done 3 days worth

Food was:
Mango & strawberries for breakfast
Ham salad & syn free yoghurt for lunch.
2 alpen light & HEa coffee for dinner.

Weigh in tomorrow, I hope I've lost that pesky 3lbs then meet up times. Eep so excited but nervous all at the same time!
I might not be around much Sunday as I'm going to Hatfield for Slam Dunk Festival. Whoop can't wait xxx

 

[missemma]

Whoop, weight in & meet up day

Weigh in done and FOUR LBS off my body, hurrah. That takes me to 13.2, eep. 3 more lbs and then I'll see the 12's, come on body we can do this

Hope you all have a lovely day on this sunny Saturday xxx

 

[emma_partington27]

Whoop well done hun hav a fab day x

 

[missemma]

Lovely day today with the girlies, so nice to meet you all we had a lovely sunny day and a nice walk around Coventry Garden. It's amazing many little things we all have in common

Having an EE today because I had meat & potato. No clue on syns today, not counting

Breakfast was fruit.

Lunch was chicken, leeks & the most gorgeous garlic mash potato with a creamy sauce. Was properly good.



Pudding was:







Good or what?

Came home & had HEa cheese, HEb bread & ham with tomatoes. Lovely.

I also bought a new dress from h&m which is a size 16 and fits. Woop
I have some other photos that I will put up as soon as I load my computer up
Thanks for a lovely day girlies xxx

 

[xJoanneJJx]

Lovely day today with the girlies, so nice to meet you all we had a lovely sunny day and a nice walk around Coventry Garden. It's amazing many little things we all have in common

Having an EE today because I had meat & potato. No clue on syns today, not counting

Breakfast was fruit.

Lunch was chicken, leeks & the most gorgeous garlic mash potato with a creamy sauce. Was properly good.

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Pudding was:

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Good or what?

Came home & had HEa cheese, HEb bread & ham with tomatoes. Lovely.

I also bought a new dress from h&m which is a size 16 and fits. Woop
I have some other photos that I will put up as soon as I load my computer up
Thanks for a lovely day girlies xxx

Yay that the dress fits! I'm home and have just collapsed into the settee haha, sleeeepy! Was lovely meeting you xx

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[missemma]

Yay that the dress fits! I'm home and have just collapsed into the settee haha, sleeeepy! Was lovely meeting you xx

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Glad you got home okay had such fun. We need to do it again soon for sure xx

 

[missemma]

Slam Dunk Festival bound, got my new dress on

Food there is going to be terrible so I've packed 2 alpen lights for when I'm hungry later. Maybe they'll have jacket potatoes!

Breakfast was:
Banana, HEb bread, 3 el laughing cow triangles & 1/2 salad cream! I had ham as well so if they do have potatoes I will have to syn that

Got a skinny latte for the train too so either second HEa or syns. Will have to decide later.

I also dyed my hair last night and it is so red! Shame it's only semi permanent!