Morning all! Having a positive motivated happy morning this morning (long may it last!)
So, stepped on the scales this morning and I'm 10st0.2lb (140.2) which means...only 0.3lb to the NINES! Very excited. I can't remember the last time I weighed 9 stone something, probably because it was back when I didn't have to weigh myself. Probably in my early teens!
I have been doing some BMI calculating and although I'm "healthy" now, I'm still worried to be at the high end of healthy. Is that stupid? I'd certainly like to be lower, and obviously a lower weight. It looks like my goal is in sight but for me I don't think this will be low enough. I think I will stay on LT until my designated refeed date, regardless of my weight before then (I was going to refeed as soon as I got to goal). I will then continue calorie counting with a restricted daily allowance up until Xmas and see where I am then. I have a few social occasions that I will make allowances for and not feel guilty about.
Ha! Just read the paragraph above and I sound like I'm developing an eating disorder! I'm not, honestly! I suppose perspective just changes as you lose weight. When I was 173lb, I could only dream of being 140lb or below. But now that I'm here, I realise that it's not enough for me and I still have flabby bits. Anyway, enough rambling as I don't want to ruin my good vibe today!
In other news, job hunt is a pain in the behind. I'm not even going to go into detail because it's confusing but basically I have been offered a job with wages the same as my previous job, but I am going to have to turn it down. I know this sounds crazy, especially in the economic climate, but the job is not for me and I know that it will frustrate me in the end. It's very basic, pretty much the kind of work that I did straight after graduating, and I need a challenge to keep me interested. I just figure that if I'm dropping my baby to crèche 5 days a week, I need to be going to a job I enjoy, not one I resent. I've done up the old traditional lists of pros and cons and I'm happy with my decision. Luckily I have enough savings to support myself (mortgage, bills etc) for the next few months as I don't want to rely on my husband for too much. Money is tight for both of us so if I HAD to take the job offer, I would. I'm just lucky to be in a situation where I can hold out for a career that I'm happy with.
I have decided to put the 30 Day Shred on the back burner until I have finished Lipotrim. I'm lacking in energy and kickboxing and hockey are enough for me at the moment. I still have time to complete it before Xmas if I start again when I'm refeeding.
Sorry for the rambling! X
