I realise i haven't been on mimimins in 2 weeks! So here I am with a quick update, though knowing me it will become a long one!
I was struggling so much, when I went home I tried to keep up with S&S even though it was week 12 or so and well I fell.... I kept having extra bars, which is so bad for the digestion (trust me on this!) and expensive, really, when I could have fruit or something and not suffer all the digestive probs! So I decided to break and eat healthy and that. Yeah right! I binged like a binge machine, if I logged all I ate that first day I think I would have broken the internets. It did involve bread, it did involve the £ shop which is my worst place! For a fiver I'm in piggy eaty heaven, oh I do love a fatty bargain.
Anyway when I got back to home from, well, home, you know what I mean! My boyfriend visited from Paris, first time I've seen him since Jan, and he actually helped. Although the week involved copious amounts of alcohol and 2 takeaways I didn't binge as I would alone- I can seriously get though 20+ bars of choc a day, plus a ton of other crap! And he didn't let me, well it felt wrong to be doing it. I had a few treats but mainly stuck to what I'd consider a healthy diet, although not low-carb. Yoghurt and fruit for breakfast with a little bran chucked in, an indian takeaway and a chinese, and a thai meal but I didn't order any rice with anything, just had the meal bit. Very nice! I did have a keema naan, well half with the takeaway and half for breakfast! I'm so very classy.
I've now been back on it for 2 weeks. I did a wonderful, 100% week and lost 8.2lb! almost all of what I had put on. Hurray! So I celebrated by... falling arse over tit right off the program. I binged like an idiot for a day, oh bloody hell I can't even remember what I had but I know 4 different shops were involved and there may have been pork pies.....
This week I've been so so so so hungry. I've been maybe... 97%, haha, I had a slice of beef one day and a slice of ham one day. Yesterday for some reason I had 4 extra packs like the fool I am! Today again I was so hungry I could eat my own arm BUT I managed to go round town, including 4 different £ shops AND Wilkos AND Asda without going nuts. I had an Atkins bar, a little pack of chicken roll, and a BL bar
but I know me, it could have been soooo much worse!
Lets ignore all that anyway and think of the future! I'm still jobhunting, I went town today for interview clothes but didn't buy a thing! I have no idea how to shop, today at my official WI I was 11st 4lb which is my lowest weight ever in my whole life....... I'm so used to buying tents, anything that fit over me I have no idea how to find stuff for thinner people! Am not 'thin' yet, I'm still size 14-16 but my stomach is huge so a lot doesn't fit me. It sticks out further than my boobs
and they are 34G so that's a lot of sticking out! I just don't know what to buy, I need to look smart.... Will try Sainsbury's tomorrow when I visit my lovely friend.
Am visiting my friend because she broke her ankle
it has pins in, she is really suffering. This is the same friend who is getting married in June, the event that kicked off my weight loss. Had she not decided to wed, I'd still be 15st plus. I've lost almost 4st because of her, since 8th December 2011 when she told me. All I wanted was to make sure I didn't show her up in the photos, I loathe having photos taken, seeing myself in a morror etc. The idea of looking for a tent to wear to a wedding (this will be the first wedding I've attended as an adult) filled me with dread! The wedding is still going ahead but it's all changed, she won't walk for a year! I still want to do her proud but everything is different. Hen party is cancelled, which was to be my next planned break on May 19th. So now my next planned break is the wedding itself, late June. In theory I could be at goal by then but I'm not pinning my hopes on that! I know me too well. I am still almost 4st lighter than when I first heard the news so if I am at this weight I will still count it as a victory, if I am less I will be happy as a happy thing.
I'm filling my evenings with craft now, I picked up some of my cardmaking supplies when I was at home and am supplementing it now with waaaay too much more stuff. Oh it's all so pretty! I'm looking to start selling cards soon, would love to do it all again. I love papercrafting. I can't draw, nor do I have an eye for jewellry making but I think my cards are good! I'll be setting up a site soon, once I've built my stocks up, and hopefully will make a go of it.
Who knows what this week will bring! After the past month or so, of ups and downs, I have no idea. I've only lost 1.2lb since a month ago today, a real shame to have wasted all this time and effort for a couple of binges to destroy it but at least it's down not up.
