on the verge
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This is my chosen path. The path I think will lead to happiness.
I have been overweight for such a long time. But now I am determined,focused and alive. For so long I have been hiding behind my food & my loose clothing.
There was a time towards the end of senior school when i suddenly realised that I was FAT & FLABBY. I was about 15 kg overweight.
At that time I was very sporty and was n the school basket ball and net ball team. I come form a conservative family and I was not allowed to socialize very much. So once school's finished I just sat with a book or in front of the TV. This used to get me down and I would visit the fridge quite often .( I am slowly beginning to understand how it all started. )
During the last year in school I decided to loose weight and I did it in just 6 months. I lost 10 kg but carried an extra 5 kg. Daily aerobic excercises and 3 very healthy a day is all it took. I was younger and my metabolic rate was much higher. I then moved to uni.
I managed to keep that weight off during university,. Which I think was great considering that I was in an accomodation where i could not cook. But I was happy with friends and i enjoyed the uni life.
Then I moved countries and started a new job and got married. I managed to keep my weight steady.
Pregnancy promptly followed suit. I was not ready for it. I was working,preparing for new exams - as if that was not enough !
Bad planning on my part.....can't blame anyone else. Didnt like the 9 months or the labour. HAd a few complications during labour and to cut a long story short ended up not being able to brest feed. One thing I haven't gotten over yet !!
My gorgeous boy was the best thing in the world. By now I had put on quite a bit of weight. From excercising 5 days a week ( and eating what i pleased) I was not excercising at all and ate like mad to get BREAST MILK to flow !!
So gradually I got fatter, depressed. I isolated my self from friends. Did not enjoy going out to parties as I didn't like the way I looked. I think it has affected my relationship with the family. I have ended up in this MESS!
My little boy is very sporty and he wants me to go running with him.
So after a long thoughtful week....after spending a long time reading articles from this forum.........I decided to take an express to weightloss. This is my journey on the LL express.
At the end of this I want to look beautiful, feel confident......I think this will help me share the love I have inside. Love that I have bottled up for fear of rejection. I want to feel free. I want to be able to go running with my son.I want to do that SKI trip.
I am determined to achieve this. I have a hectic time at work and at the moment family life is difficult. But I have made a decision and I am going to stick to it.
I know its going to be a hard uphill climb.......but the view from the top of the hill will be AMAZING!
Its day 5 on LL. Its going well. My skin has started to glow.
I can do the water. I am not hungry and don't wan to pick on food - KETOSIS IS HERE !
BUT I dont enjoy the soups. Vanilla shake with coffee and Porridge are my fav.
I hope I have not bored everyone with this long thread. Writing has helped me cleared my head. I want to pick out the issues that have led to this problem so that I can get it out of my system.
Thanks for stopping by.
I hope U have a lovely LL day !;
I have been overweight for such a long time. But now I am determined,focused and alive. For so long I have been hiding behind my food & my loose clothing.
There was a time towards the end of senior school when i suddenly realised that I was FAT & FLABBY. I was about 15 kg overweight.
At that time I was very sporty and was n the school basket ball and net ball team. I come form a conservative family and I was not allowed to socialize very much. So once school's finished I just sat with a book or in front of the TV. This used to get me down and I would visit the fridge quite often .( I am slowly beginning to understand how it all started. )
During the last year in school I decided to loose weight and I did it in just 6 months. I lost 10 kg but carried an extra 5 kg. Daily aerobic excercises and 3 very healthy a day is all it took. I was younger and my metabolic rate was much higher. I then moved to uni.
I managed to keep that weight off during university,. Which I think was great considering that I was in an accomodation where i could not cook. But I was happy with friends and i enjoyed the uni life.
Then I moved countries and started a new job and got married. I managed to keep my weight steady.
Pregnancy promptly followed suit. I was not ready for it. I was working,preparing for new exams - as if that was not enough !
Bad planning on my part.....can't blame anyone else. Didnt like the 9 months or the labour. HAd a few complications during labour and to cut a long story short ended up not being able to brest feed. One thing I haven't gotten over yet !!
My gorgeous boy was the best thing in the world. By now I had put on quite a bit of weight. From excercising 5 days a week ( and eating what i pleased) I was not excercising at all and ate like mad to get BREAST MILK to flow !!
So gradually I got fatter, depressed. I isolated my self from friends. Did not enjoy going out to parties as I didn't like the way I looked. I think it has affected my relationship with the family. I have ended up in this MESS!
My little boy is very sporty and he wants me to go running with him.
So after a long thoughtful week....after spending a long time reading articles from this forum.........I decided to take an express to weightloss. This is my journey on the LL express.
At the end of this I want to look beautiful, feel confident......I think this will help me share the love I have inside. Love that I have bottled up for fear of rejection. I want to feel free. I want to be able to go running with my son.I want to do that SKI trip.
I am determined to achieve this. I have a hectic time at work and at the moment family life is difficult. But I have made a decision and I am going to stick to it.
I know its going to be a hard uphill climb.......but the view from the top of the hill will be AMAZING!
Its day 5 on LL. Its going well. My skin has started to glow.
I can do the water. I am not hungry and don't wan to pick on food - KETOSIS IS HERE !
BUT I dont enjoy the soups. Vanilla shake with coffee and Porridge are my fav.
I hope I have not bored everyone with this long thread. Writing has helped me cleared my head. I want to pick out the issues that have led to this problem so that I can get it out of my system.
Thanks for stopping by.
I hope U have a lovely LL day !;