Cee
Silver Member
Right! Here I go again. I know we all tend to go back and forth on our diets but when you start A diet every morning and by lunchtime you've managed to convince yourself that postponing it till tomorrow won't make much difference, so a 'last supper' binge is needed..... there's a problem!
Ive tried everything to get myself started on CD again and never manage yo go past the fist day. It's like there are two people living in this body of mine ( there's almost enough of me to make that possible) and one wants this so bad whilst the other sabotages the first in every way and then makes her feel extremely guilty and a failure. There has to be a way out of this cycle I've tied myself into and today is the day that cycle gets broken.
I start CD again. AGAIN!! I'm hoping that someone reads this and understands where I'm coming from. I sure need the support. I also need someone who needs some support to hold me accountable for any lapses of mine which might negate the support. Does any of that make sense to anyone?
So I know my first challenge might be that no one has shown any interest in this diary so why bother with it? From there it will be 'why bother with the diet. I know the evil side of me always has a good reason for why I should stop CD and have a good old comforting binge. She never reminds me how awful I will feel after so I will have to do my best to banish her from my subconcious!
Here goes day 1. Wish me luck!
Ive tried everything to get myself started on CD again and never manage yo go past the fist day. It's like there are two people living in this body of mine ( there's almost enough of me to make that possible) and one wants this so bad whilst the other sabotages the first in every way and then makes her feel extremely guilty and a failure. There has to be a way out of this cycle I've tied myself into and today is the day that cycle gets broken.
I start CD again. AGAIN!! I'm hoping that someone reads this and understands where I'm coming from. I sure need the support. I also need someone who needs some support to hold me accountable for any lapses of mine which might negate the support. Does any of that make sense to anyone?
So I know my first challenge might be that no one has shown any interest in this diary so why bother with it? From there it will be 'why bother with the diet. I know the evil side of me always has a good reason for why I should stop CD and have a good old comforting binge. She never reminds me how awful I will feel after so I will have to do my best to banish her from my subconcious!
Here goes day 1. Wish me luck!