sandyblack
Full Member
Hi everyone,
I started Exante in May but have had a total relapse since my post saying how I was going to 'have a day off for my birthday'...
This turned into many weeks of sticking my head in the sand and not getting on the scales.
Truthfully, I dont think I have ever been this unhappy in my entire life. :cry::cry:
The sole reason for this is what I weigh today. Im sure there are lots of newbies on here since I stopped Exante around mid june - so long story short - I was 10 stone at xmas and now im 14 stone.
I cant even look in the mirror, I dont leave the house for fear of bumping into people that knew me before I gained the weight and my relationship with my OH is falling apart because of me.
This is ALL my own doing and I have spent long enough crying about it. I have absolutely nothing to wear as everything is so so small and I wont go out and buy more things.
I did pretty well on Exante before my massive binge (yet again) and im now heavier than what I was when I started in May. I have never weighed what I weigh now in my entire life and I feel so sick and embarrassed as to my eating problem and my behaviour. My poor poor boyfriend.
I decided to return to exante as I need to sort my life out as at the moment I really dont have one. I have stopped all contact with my friends as im too embarassed to see them.
Any advice from anyone would be massively appreciated. I intend to start tomorrow and stick to it but every bone in my body is telling me that I will always be unhappy and hiding indoors from now on. Why is this? Why do I treat myself this way?
Sorry for the very negative post - I dont speak/see anyone so I guess I bottle this up all the time.
All of you are doing brilliantly well and I am in awe of all of you on here. I just want to be able to look in the mirror again and walk out of my front door in time/have a normal life. Im tired of coming up with excuse after excuse for reasons I cant attend social stuff. Im just wasting my life now.
Cant believe I have written all this but I think I needed to be honest with myself.xxxxxxx
I started Exante in May but have had a total relapse since my post saying how I was going to 'have a day off for my birthday'...
This turned into many weeks of sticking my head in the sand and not getting on the scales.
Truthfully, I dont think I have ever been this unhappy in my entire life. :cry::cry:
The sole reason for this is what I weigh today. Im sure there are lots of newbies on here since I stopped Exante around mid june - so long story short - I was 10 stone at xmas and now im 14 stone.
I cant even look in the mirror, I dont leave the house for fear of bumping into people that knew me before I gained the weight and my relationship with my OH is falling apart because of me.
This is ALL my own doing and I have spent long enough crying about it. I have absolutely nothing to wear as everything is so so small and I wont go out and buy more things.
I did pretty well on Exante before my massive binge (yet again) and im now heavier than what I was when I started in May. I have never weighed what I weigh now in my entire life and I feel so sick and embarrassed as to my eating problem and my behaviour. My poor poor boyfriend.
I decided to return to exante as I need to sort my life out as at the moment I really dont have one. I have stopped all contact with my friends as im too embarassed to see them.
Any advice from anyone would be massively appreciated. I intend to start tomorrow and stick to it but every bone in my body is telling me that I will always be unhappy and hiding indoors from now on. Why is this? Why do I treat myself this way?
Sorry for the very negative post - I dont speak/see anyone so I guess I bottle this up all the time.
All of you are doing brilliantly well and I am in awe of all of you on here. I just want to be able to look in the mirror again and walk out of my front door in time/have a normal life. Im tired of coming up with excuse after excuse for reasons I cant attend social stuff. Im just wasting my life now.
Cant believe I have written all this but I think I needed to be honest with myself.xxxxxxx