Well i dont think ive ever made a diary before, always just posted on other threads and put the odd thread here and there but decided i thought i'd try and write down how my days are going so perhaps it will keep me motivated in the dark moments.
Well my history, im 29yrs young and striving to be slim by 30. Ive been married to my amazing hubby for 4yrs and we've got a beautiful lil girl Ella who's 21 months old. I've ALWAYS been overweight from being about 6yrs old and can remember going to weight class with my mum aged 7. Everyone on my mums side of the family is morbidly obese and i really dont want to end up physically disabled because of my weight. I think i've been slim once in my life aged 16-18 when i actually lost 4.5 stone but then a blood clot aged 18 meant i couldnt exercise and became stagnant so on crept the weight and accompanying bad habits and ive struggled ever since. I did have a second blood clot aged 20 and so have been on anti-coagulant therapy ever since.
I met my wonderful husband in 2005 and well you know how it is you get comfortable and the weight piles on. When we got engaged i started cambridge diet and did lose 3 stone in about 4 months then a car accident knocked me back and i didnt lose any more after that but did get down to a size 16 for my wedding day. Then we started trying for a baby but that didn't happen and the weight crept on as the months went by to the point we got sent for fertility testing and were told we would be unlikely to conceive naturally as i had no progesterone. The fertility team then strated me on Xenical as i needed a BMI under 35 to be eligible for any treatment and did lose another 3 stone and miraculously got pregnant so had to stop the diet. Had a difficult pregnancy due to the warfarin side of things and had to inject myself twice daily with blood thinner...ouch then got SPD and ended up going into spontaneous premature labour at 35wks. Lil Ella was born on 18th June 2010 weighing 3lbs 4oz, didn't get the inital cuddle as she got whisked straight off to neonatal and then to make it worse I had a retained placenta so had to go down to theatre to have that removed. When I came round we were met by the neonatal consultant who told us our lile girl needed to be transferred to a specialist hospital in Manchester to have life saving surgery
It turned out she had what's called a Tracheoeosphageal Fistula and Oesophageal atresia, basically her food pipe and wind pipe were joined together and there was no connection to her stomach so she was literally drowning on her saliva. So we all got whisked to Manchester and spent a harrowing 9wks in hospital where Ella had a further 3 surgeries. Our life became just a cycle of getting up going to hospital, sitting by her incubator then going home by midnight and the weight just piled on as we just lived off fast food and takeaways. Things didn't get much easier when Ella came home due to her condition, she regulalry aspirated milk onto her lungs and at 4 months became dependant on a nasogastric tube then at 5 months she had bronchiolitis and was in hospital for a further 3 weeks then we had another blow when we were told the reason she couldnt swallow the milk safely was because the join between food pipe and wind pipe had grown back, cue surgery number 7 to insert a feeding tube directly into her stomach so she could grow enough to enable her to have the life saving surgery again. Prior to having that operation she had 7 aspirational pneuomonias and spent approx 3 more months in hospital then in April last yr finally was fit enough to have the surgery. Since then things regarding Ellas health have gone from strength to strength, shes now completely orally fed and has not required surgery for almost 5 months now which is the longest EVER. She's a lil dot weighing just 21lbs haha unfortunately i am now heavier than ever and it'd got to the point where i was gettingout of breath just walking up the stairs so i have no chance running round outside etc so that was the kick up the bum to restart my weight loss as things have settled down and i now feel able to deal with the psychological issues aswell.
I decided to restart Cambridge diet as i was very successful on it last time however was horrified when i weighed in at 22st 9lbs, that meant i'd gained 4 stone since Ella was born omg.
So that's me, im now also back at work full time and determined to be a yummy mummy and want to be able to enjoy my lil girl growing up
Well my history, im 29yrs young and striving to be slim by 30. Ive been married to my amazing hubby for 4yrs and we've got a beautiful lil girl Ella who's 21 months old. I've ALWAYS been overweight from being about 6yrs old and can remember going to weight class with my mum aged 7. Everyone on my mums side of the family is morbidly obese and i really dont want to end up physically disabled because of my weight. I think i've been slim once in my life aged 16-18 when i actually lost 4.5 stone but then a blood clot aged 18 meant i couldnt exercise and became stagnant so on crept the weight and accompanying bad habits and ive struggled ever since. I did have a second blood clot aged 20 and so have been on anti-coagulant therapy ever since.
I met my wonderful husband in 2005 and well you know how it is you get comfortable and the weight piles on. When we got engaged i started cambridge diet and did lose 3 stone in about 4 months then a car accident knocked me back and i didnt lose any more after that but did get down to a size 16 for my wedding day. Then we started trying for a baby but that didn't happen and the weight crept on as the months went by to the point we got sent for fertility testing and were told we would be unlikely to conceive naturally as i had no progesterone. The fertility team then strated me on Xenical as i needed a BMI under 35 to be eligible for any treatment and did lose another 3 stone and miraculously got pregnant so had to stop the diet. Had a difficult pregnancy due to the warfarin side of things and had to inject myself twice daily with blood thinner...ouch then got SPD and ended up going into spontaneous premature labour at 35wks. Lil Ella was born on 18th June 2010 weighing 3lbs 4oz, didn't get the inital cuddle as she got whisked straight off to neonatal and then to make it worse I had a retained placenta so had to go down to theatre to have that removed. When I came round we were met by the neonatal consultant who told us our lile girl needed to be transferred to a specialist hospital in Manchester to have life saving surgery
It turned out she had what's called a Tracheoeosphageal Fistula and Oesophageal atresia, basically her food pipe and wind pipe were joined together and there was no connection to her stomach so she was literally drowning on her saliva. So we all got whisked to Manchester and spent a harrowing 9wks in hospital where Ella had a further 3 surgeries. Our life became just a cycle of getting up going to hospital, sitting by her incubator then going home by midnight and the weight just piled on as we just lived off fast food and takeaways. Things didn't get much easier when Ella came home due to her condition, she regulalry aspirated milk onto her lungs and at 4 months became dependant on a nasogastric tube then at 5 months she had bronchiolitis and was in hospital for a further 3 weeks then we had another blow when we were told the reason she couldnt swallow the milk safely was because the join between food pipe and wind pipe had grown back, cue surgery number 7 to insert a feeding tube directly into her stomach so she could grow enough to enable her to have the life saving surgery again. Prior to having that operation she had 7 aspirational pneuomonias and spent approx 3 more months in hospital then in April last yr finally was fit enough to have the surgery. Since then things regarding Ellas health have gone from strength to strength, shes now completely orally fed and has not required surgery for almost 5 months now which is the longest EVER. She's a lil dot weighing just 21lbs haha unfortunately i am now heavier than ever and it'd got to the point where i was gettingout of breath just walking up the stairs so i have no chance running round outside etc so that was the kick up the bum to restart my weight loss as things have settled down and i now feel able to deal with the psychological issues aswell.I decided to restart Cambridge diet as i was very successful on it last time however was horrified when i weighed in at 22st 9lbs, that meant i'd gained 4 stone since Ella was born omg.
So that's me, im now also back at work full time and determined to be a yummy mummy and want to be able to enjoy my lil girl growing up
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