Hi everyone. I am new on minimins but over the years have tried WW about 5 times. I have just realised I have a binge eating disorder and I feel I now understand the reasons I have failed WW in the past.
When I say I have binge eating disorder I have done a lot of research and all of the signs are there- e.g this morning I felt tired, stressed, bored and fat. So just now on my lunch instead of eating the healthy chicken salad I made for lunch I went home and within 40 minutes ate 2 smarties cookies, a dairy milk icecream (the big ones) a large cheese, ham and salad cream baguette and a whole packet of biscuits. On WW that is probably about 35 points. I did a very similar thing on my lunch yesterday and then proceeded in the evening to go home and eat a whole large bar of white chocolate, 1 smarties cookie, a packet of biscuits, 2 doughnuts and 3 chilli fajita wraps loaded with cheese. I am now 12 stone 9.5lbs and when I first started WW 3 years ago I was 11st 4lbs.
I think that dieting has actually made me fatter and made me develop this eating disorder. I suppose it is like bulimia but you dont make yourself sick after each meal, you just want to cry.
I know this is a lot on my first post but I needed to tell someone as I have just realised this is what I have a I feel too ashamed to tell my family or boyfriend. I am going on holiday i just over 3 weeks and wanted to loose a stone before that but now Im scared Im stuck in a vicious cycle.
Help me please x
When I say I have binge eating disorder I have done a lot of research and all of the signs are there- e.g this morning I felt tired, stressed, bored and fat. So just now on my lunch instead of eating the healthy chicken salad I made for lunch I went home and within 40 minutes ate 2 smarties cookies, a dairy milk icecream (the big ones) a large cheese, ham and salad cream baguette and a whole packet of biscuits. On WW that is probably about 35 points. I did a very similar thing on my lunch yesterday and then proceeded in the evening to go home and eat a whole large bar of white chocolate, 1 smarties cookie, a packet of biscuits, 2 doughnuts and 3 chilli fajita wraps loaded with cheese. I am now 12 stone 9.5lbs and when I first started WW 3 years ago I was 11st 4lbs.
I think that dieting has actually made me fatter and made me develop this eating disorder. I suppose it is like bulimia but you dont make yourself sick after each meal, you just want to cry.
I know this is a lot on my first post but I needed to tell someone as I have just realised this is what I have a I feel too ashamed to tell my family or boyfriend. I am going on holiday i just over 3 weeks and wanted to loose a stone before that but now Im scared Im stuck in a vicious cycle.
Help me please x