Alia
Silver Member
As you know I was a bit off track this week although on reflection I was n't really that bad because I did n't once even reach for any of the usual things I would have eat like cakes,chocolate, biscuits etc, infact I did n't even consider going for those things. I think the worst thing that I ate was a packet of Walkers BBQ crisps and in all honesty I did n't enjoy them.
The reason for me being a bit off was that I'm pregnant. It was n't planned, I had a miscarriage in February and decided then that we would put a hold on baby plans till next year when I had lost loads of weight. Clearly my body had other plans and although I'm so far off my ideal weight I am about 30kg lighter than when when I had my miscarriage so that is a positive thing. It's taken me a couple of weeks to come to terms with the pregnancy - as this will be our last I'd hoped to have a really positive pregnancy after a huge weightloss instead of a problem filled one like my last and previous ones - there is alot of negativity from medical staff towards obese pregnant women and my scans in my last pregnancy left me feeling like a second class citizen due to the attitudes of the people doing them. I've wallowed in self pity for about 10 days now but today I got up and decided that I can carry on with that attitude for my pregnancy or fight it and try to enjoy it as much as possible - if that is possible, I'm not a pregnancy lover! I've had to stop all my medication suddenly - pain killers, epilepsy medication, nerve supressants, anti depressants, plus a few other things and that has n't helped as I'm not able to sleep at night and I feel exahusted. With my last pregnancy I became a hermit - did n't go out, talk to any one, just lay on the couch all day and I don't want to do that again - well I can't do that again, I've got a 2 year old to take care of this time round so it's not even an option.
I intend to continue with my weightloss journey despite my pregnancy and have been told I could still have alot of success though in the later months the weightloss will slow down. All I need to do is get my midwife to sign some forms saying it is ok for me to carry on with SW.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up yet after my miscarriage but there is no reason why is should happen again but I'll feel more at ease once I get past next week.
Let's just hope it's not twins again!!!
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The reason for me being a bit off was that I'm pregnant. It was n't planned, I had a miscarriage in February and decided then that we would put a hold on baby plans till next year when I had lost loads of weight. Clearly my body had other plans and although I'm so far off my ideal weight I am about 30kg lighter than when when I had my miscarriage so that is a positive thing. It's taken me a couple of weeks to come to terms with the pregnancy - as this will be our last I'd hoped to have a really positive pregnancy after a huge weightloss instead of a problem filled one like my last and previous ones - there is alot of negativity from medical staff towards obese pregnant women and my scans in my last pregnancy left me feeling like a second class citizen due to the attitudes of the people doing them. I've wallowed in self pity for about 10 days now but today I got up and decided that I can carry on with that attitude for my pregnancy or fight it and try to enjoy it as much as possible - if that is possible, I'm not a pregnancy lover! I've had to stop all my medication suddenly - pain killers, epilepsy medication, nerve supressants, anti depressants, plus a few other things and that has n't helped as I'm not able to sleep at night and I feel exahusted. With my last pregnancy I became a hermit - did n't go out, talk to any one, just lay on the couch all day and I don't want to do that again - well I can't do that again, I've got a 2 year old to take care of this time round so it's not even an option.
I intend to continue with my weightloss journey despite my pregnancy and have been told I could still have alot of success though in the later months the weightloss will slow down. All I need to do is get my midwife to sign some forms saying it is ok for me to carry on with SW.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up yet after my miscarriage but there is no reason why is should happen again but I'll feel more at ease once I get past next week.
Let's just hope it's not twins again!!!
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