Well, folks, I'm 3 lb off my initial goal of 11 stone. I've come down over a couple of years from 20 stone 7 lb, so I set a goal right at the top of my healthy weight range. Might shift that another half stone when I get there - hopefully in another week to 10 days.
However ... all kinds of weird things are happening to my head, now the end is in sight! Not only am I picking, but I seem to be kind of tripping myself up in other ways. For example, I'm more critical about my body now then I was at my heaviest, and noticing flaws in myself I didn't when I had a very obvious weight propblem to focus on. I get down about signs of ageing, loose skin, my skin texture, and just feel at times really pants that at the end of all this, I'm never going to be 25 again, never going to have a smooth tummy, never going to look good naked. I compare myself with other women far, far more than I used to.
It's as though I've moved from some kind of status of 'looking good for a big woman' to 'looking avarage for a normal size woman' and I can't understand why I'm doing this to myself!
So I think some kind of psychological changes are happening and I'd just like to feel I could put them in some sort of context. Is it normal to feel like this? How have other people felt as they approached target? Are there any threads or articles I could read to take me on to the next step? I feel totally unprepared for the life beyond dieting in every sense!
Hope this doesn't sound overly depressing or 'ungrateful'!
xxx
However ... all kinds of weird things are happening to my head, now the end is in sight! Not only am I picking, but I seem to be kind of tripping myself up in other ways. For example, I'm more critical about my body now then I was at my heaviest, and noticing flaws in myself I didn't when I had a very obvious weight propblem to focus on. I get down about signs of ageing, loose skin, my skin texture, and just feel at times really pants that at the end of all this, I'm never going to be 25 again, never going to have a smooth tummy, never going to look good naked. I compare myself with other women far, far more than I used to.
It's as though I've moved from some kind of status of 'looking good for a big woman' to 'looking avarage for a normal size woman' and I can't understand why I'm doing this to myself!
So I think some kind of psychological changes are happening and I'd just like to feel I could put them in some sort of context. Is it normal to feel like this? How have other people felt as they approached target? Are there any threads or articles I could read to take me on to the next step? I feel totally unprepared for the life beyond dieting in every sense!
Hope this doesn't sound overly depressing or 'ungrateful'!
xxx