Hello everyone
As you are my newfound SW pals I wondered if I could share something with you?
I have to go into hospital next week for a general anaesthetic (nothing serious, just routine) but I am absolutely terrified to be honest. I've had them before and they never used to bother me, but now I'm so big I'm quite convinced that I'm going to die on the table because I'm fat.
I know this probably sounds a bit melodramatic, but it really is a real fear I have. They do all the pre-op checks on you and stuff, and I presume that they wouldn't put me forward for it if I was likely to die, but then they do say that you have an "increased risk" due to your weight, but on the plus side it's only a short procedure so they shouldn't have to use much anaesthesia.
It's probably very irrational, but the reason I'm having the op is because I can't cope with the pain of having this gynaecological thing done without it.. and I keep thinking what if I get punished by the universe for being a coward about it and end up dying as result?
Oh dear, I probably sound like a raving loony now and I don't mean to.. but its nice to be able to share this as I don't think anyone really understands why I'm so scared.
Helen