So here I am, week three and starting to struggle so I thought I'd start a diary to try and keep me on track...I love reading everyone else's diaries on here and find it really inspirational, so here goes.
I started CD after realising that a year after uni I was still eating like a student and never mind the fresher's 14 I ...I'm lugging around what has become a 'graduate's 35'.
I have tried weight watchers with limited success, slimming world with even less success and then opted to try and 'do it myself' and eat healthily and exercise. The trouble with all of it is that I do ok for the first week, then the measuring gets a bit boring, and then there's that essential celebration event which I cannot possibly be on a diet for...then there's the days that I feel down and 'deserve a treat' (why do we feel the need to have all these 'treats'?) then, oh I don't know, it's thursday and friday is my night in with my OH so we could have a takeaway, which means there's no point dieting before that and then it's the weekend, so I'll start on monday...you get the drift.
Once I start to gain weight I seem to get a bit 'oh sod it' and start telling myself I'm happy with my new weight and that not everything is about being slim, thus giving myself permission to give in time and time again. Before I know it I'm waiting for my OH to be out for the evening and heading to Asda and blowing half a days wages on junk. I binge eat in secret and shamefully hide the wrappers in the bin outside so my OH (who tries so hard to support me in my weight loss) doesn't see them. The weird thing is, once the wrappers have gone, I feel almost like I haven't eaten anything and feel genuinely outraged when my OH suggests that maybe I haven't stuck to the plan - even as I'm lying on the bed trying the wrench the zip up on my jeans!!
So food is my drug. And I get in a horrible cycle of bingeing, gaining, pretending that I'm happy then all of a sudden breaking down because I realise that I haven't looked at myself properly in the mirror for weeks and now I'm about to go out and none of my clothes fit. That's when I start a diet, do well for a week...and it goes round again. Except each time my start weight is a bit higher and everything a little bit more desperate....:cry:
The turning point came for me when I was looking at last years holiday photos. In all of them I am hiding. Behind another friend, ducking under the water in the pool or cowering under a sarong, doing that casual I-just-happen-to -have- my -arms-draped-across-my-stomach look . In all the others I am eating! What made me really sad is that my OH pointed out that there weren't any of me and him. He's right, there aren't so this year I want it to be different. It's not about being a skinny mini in my bikini, it's about feeling fab and recording the great times with my friends without desperately flicking through the pics pressing the 'delete' button.
So here I am week 3. CD appealed because it takes food out of the equation and it's so straightforward. For the first few days I had a headache and was horrible to be around, but after that it has been great! I have lots more energy and apart from the dragon breath it seems to suit me.
Week 1 -6.5lbs, Week 2 -4lbs Week 3.....stayed the same?! I definitely 100% hand on heart have stuck to the plan. Does anyone else have weeks where they don't lose? any tips? Sorry for my weird ramblings, I think I needed to get everything down..promise the next posts won't be so long!
I started CD after realising that a year after uni I was still eating like a student and never mind the fresher's 14 I ...I'm lugging around what has become a 'graduate's 35'.
I have tried weight watchers with limited success, slimming world with even less success and then opted to try and 'do it myself' and eat healthily and exercise. The trouble with all of it is that I do ok for the first week, then the measuring gets a bit boring, and then there's that essential celebration event which I cannot possibly be on a diet for...then there's the days that I feel down and 'deserve a treat' (why do we feel the need to have all these 'treats'?) then, oh I don't know, it's thursday and friday is my night in with my OH so we could have a takeaway, which means there's no point dieting before that and then it's the weekend, so I'll start on monday...you get the drift.
Once I start to gain weight I seem to get a bit 'oh sod it' and start telling myself I'm happy with my new weight and that not everything is about being slim, thus giving myself permission to give in time and time again. Before I know it I'm waiting for my OH to be out for the evening and heading to Asda and blowing half a days wages on junk. I binge eat in secret and shamefully hide the wrappers in the bin outside so my OH (who tries so hard to support me in my weight loss) doesn't see them. The weird thing is, once the wrappers have gone, I feel almost like I haven't eaten anything and feel genuinely outraged when my OH suggests that maybe I haven't stuck to the plan - even as I'm lying on the bed trying the wrench the zip up on my jeans!!
So food is my drug. And I get in a horrible cycle of bingeing, gaining, pretending that I'm happy then all of a sudden breaking down because I realise that I haven't looked at myself properly in the mirror for weeks and now I'm about to go out and none of my clothes fit. That's when I start a diet, do well for a week...and it goes round again. Except each time my start weight is a bit higher and everything a little bit more desperate....:cry:
The turning point came for me when I was looking at last years holiday photos. In all of them I am hiding. Behind another friend, ducking under the water in the pool or cowering under a sarong, doing that casual I-just-happen-to -have- my -arms-draped-across-my-stomach look . In all the others I am eating! What made me really sad is that my OH pointed out that there weren't any of me and him. He's right, there aren't so this year I want it to be different. It's not about being a skinny mini in my bikini, it's about feeling fab and recording the great times with my friends without desperately flicking through the pics pressing the 'delete' button.
So here I am week 3. CD appealed because it takes food out of the equation and it's so straightforward. For the first few days I had a headache and was horrible to be around, but after that it has been great! I have lots more energy and apart from the dragon breath it seems to suit me.
Week 1 -6.5lbs, Week 2 -4lbs Week 3.....stayed the same?! I definitely 100% hand on heart have stuck to the plan. Does anyone else have weeks where they don't lose? any tips? Sorry for my weird ramblings, I think I needed to get everything down..promise the next posts won't be so long!