Ive really had enough of being fat. I try so hard, but always end up giving in. I just dont want to be here anymore. Ive been looking into gastric band surgery and I totally cant afford it, and my Dr sasy I cant have one on the NHS. My life feels not worth living being fat! I even avoid my family members because I cant bear the comments about weight 'you still not lost any weight' 'that top makes you look big.' Im at my wits end. I want it so so bad, yet I cant do it. every monday Im 'starting again' but Ive given up already, it's only 7.30pm, given into hunger. Im sick of the stares and comments, Id rather not be here anymore.