Like you just said you can't change the past and you're doing something about it now so that's a good thing. This is not forever. We will do this xThank you both for the encouraging words. Tbh I don't even want a Chinese, think im just mad with myself that if I had only been more disciplined with what I eat over the last few years i wouldn't be in this position now! But I can't change the past. At least I'm doing something about it now I guess. Hope you both have had positive days! Xx