Red's CWP Diary

[*Cupcake*]

Hi Red - 5lbs - wowser! That is brilliant - bet your chuffed nice to hear you a having time with your OH - it can be isolating on a vlcd but that's the learning curve we are on isnt it? Managing our social lives and behaviour without it being totally about food. I've noticed I'm focussing on conversations better, and noticing things more without all the troughing! You are doing so well - and look how worth it it is!

Have a fabby day - and go on - grab a kiss and a cuddle if you need it! Xx

 

[RedHarri]

Week 3 - Day 1

Today was apple and cinnamon porridge for breakfast, spicy tomato soup for lunch and a chocolate carton for dinner.

I've been sorting out my next order with my CWPC (she does a 5% discount for monthly payers) and have decided to switch to bars for lunch instead of soup. I've ordered a mixture and hope I like them, especially as July is a 5 week month!

We also discussed her being away on Mon 1st July and did I want a mid-week weigh in instead? I've declined and have decided to go for two weeks straight instead. I don't want to mess about with 4 days worth of loss then a long gap until my next. Might as well just leave it the full 2 weeks and I must not stand on my scales at home! This isn't all about weight, it's about being healthy and doing something for myself too. I'm not normally a makeup or pamper person and I've been enjoying my pamper Saturday mornings, something I would never normally have the inclination to do. I used to just think, "I'm fat anyway, why bother?", but I realise now this is just as unhealthy for my mind as my diet was for my body. Another habit to be re-trained.

I'm also thinking of going onto SS+ for the last 4 of my 12 weeks. I don't want to get to 810 and be like, "Ooooo real food!" and completely lose track so I think the little introduction to food for a few weeks before is a good idea. Has anyone else tried this? What is it like when you eat food again? Even the bars will feel like cheating, I think I've forgotten how to chew!

Stolen Motivation of the Day: In case you have not been adequately informed, please consider this official notification that you are awesome :queen:

 

[RedHarri]

Week 3 - Day 2

Today was yummy maple and pecan porridge for breakfast, oriental chilli soup for lunch and a chocolate carton for dinner.

My CWPC dropped off two shake sachets today for me to try. I got one chocolate mint and one toffee and walnut. I think I'm going to have them on Friday and Saturday as dinners.

I've been playing with a spreadsheet today, (How exciting my life is... I enjoyed it too!), and I've worked out that if I lose 2lb a week I will be at a "healthy" (I hate those labels) BMI of 25 by the end of August. I also made a line chart of my weigh-ins and admired the southbound pattern. It's really motivated me that I definitely want it now. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I think I'll decide when I get to BMI 25 if I want to go further or not.

I'm looking forward to attempting to cook and have started researching the things I know nothing about, like what the eff you do with red lentils when you get them home from the supermarket? Apparently wash them then put them in a pan with water. Sounds so easy, who knew? I'm sure that's going to be one of the challenging things, but I'm not doing this to eat chicken and broccoli every night. My mission for my healthy lifestyle includes cooking healthy foods and so I must learn. No more microwave meals when I'm maintaining! I want to know exactly what I'm putting in my stomach.


Stolen Motivation of the Day: Drink Water. Drink Water. Drink Water

 

[Kanga]

Hi :wavey:Just read through your diary and I wanted to say wow well done!! You have a fab way of putting things and I love the motivation bit at the end of your posts Couldn't help giggling with not seeing your other half and fearing knocking him out, I have felt exactly the same this week and have also been making him cook for himself!!

 

[RedHarri]

Hi :wavey:Just read through your diary and I wanted to say wow well done!! You have a fab way of putting things and I love the motivation bit at the end of your posts Couldn't help giggling with not seeing your other half and fearing knocking him out, I have felt exactly the same this week and have also been making him cook for himself!!

Hey Kanga,
Thank you very much *blushes* It's nice to know you've enjoyed reading it as much as I've enjoyed writing it. It's a form of therapy I think! siholog:
The other halves, although suffering now, will be rewarded with Goddess like girlfriends in time... So dayum right he can get his own butt in the kitchen! He cooks garlic too the effer, I miss garlic so much! Good things come to those who wait though...

xx

 

[hayley29]

Well done your doing great

How far off target are you now? Xx

 

[Little Plum Duff]

Just found your diary and loving your quotes! How's your latest week been? I've said it many times, I find I'm like an alcoholic and it's one day at a time, one minute a a time or (on the really tough days) one second at a time! Get through them to the next and another successful day logged! When I'm struggling with the mental hunger I tell myself if I REALLY still want it tomorrow, I can have it. I've never woken up regretting I didn't break. Keep it up, you really will thank yourself! Picture the you, you want to be and go for it!

 

[Kanga]

Hey Kanga,
Thank you very much *blushes* It's nice to know you've enjoyed reading it as much as I've enjoyed writing it. It's a form of therapy I think! siholog:
The other halves, although suffering now, will be rewarded with Goddess like girlfriends in time... So dayum right he can get his own butt in the kitchen! He cooks garlic too the effer, I miss garlic so much! Good things come to those who wait though...

xx

Goddess like girlfriends.. I like that.. I will have to tell him later that he'll benefit from the good things that come with waiting too, hehe. Although he probably wouldn't agree as I am sure it will invlove lots of new clothes.. which I think are justified because I live in the same couple of outfits as I am Had my second weigh in today and now lost 16lbs in two weeks.. I can't believe it ! Thinking of starting a diary myself tomorrow as now that I have done the two weeks I am going to see how I get on finally doing the 30 Day Shred DVD that has been sat collecting dust for a while.... second thoughts I may try to see if I live until the end the first time before making an ambitious claim to document it

 

[*Cupcake*]

Hi Red - how are you doing? Hope allies well - nearly the weekend! Xx

 

[RedHarri]

Week 3 - Days 3 & 4

Hey All!

Well I've been on plan, no cheats with Thursday being apple and cinnamon porridge, potato and leek soup for lunch and a chocolate carton for dinner. Yesterday I had maple and pecan porridge, spicy tomato soup for lunch and my first powder shake, toffee and walnut. Loved it! It was like sweet, liquid, peanut butter :drool:. My CWPC said it is one of her most unpopular ones! I'll write about today later when I know I've gotten through the day!

I'm loving the tips I'm getting from here... :talk017:

Plum, you're right. If you really want it have it tomorrow. That is such a good idea and backs up the "Not depriving myself, choosing not to", mentality. I don't think I'd get through this if I thought I was missing out on something. Being positive is definitely a must!

Kanga, yep, living in the same few outfits! It's nice to feel them slowly loosening though; and I know if I stick at it I will have the best excuse for the mother of all retail therapy, new wardrobe! I would definitely recommend starting your own diary too. Even if you're typing just for you, it's there for other people as inspiration and you can look back to remember how far you've come in weak moments. Everyone's diary is different!

Hayley & Cupcake, thank you as always. I've not set a target yet apart from a "healthy" (urgh) BMI of 25 which will make me 10-10 (Being in the 10's? Seriously! Seems like a dream!) I'm still researching what I want to do when maintaining but I'm thinking low carb will be the way. Have a search for "broccoli bread" and "eat water pasta" if you're bored one day... I think it's quite interesting!

Exercise...? Well I know it's going to have to be a part of my lifestyle in future, but I haven't figured that one out yet!

As the housework fairies didn't visit last night while I slept, I'm off to do their work...

Stolen Motivation of the (Day before Yester)Day: Just do it, because it may suck not being able to eat your favourite foods as much as you used to, but it sucks even more to be stuck in a body you hate :character00100:

Stolen Motivation of the (Yester)Day: Dear extra fat in my body, you have two options: Make your way to my boobs or get the eff out

 

[*Cupcake*]

Lol at the 'dear fat' - mine can just leave as my boobs are ridiculous enough as it is!


You are doing so well Red - and thanks for the tip about toffee and pecan. I will put that on my list to try next week.

The blessed fairies have not been here either - how does so much accumulate when I'm not looking?! ( a bit like my weight I suppose )

Hope Saturday is going well - I'm so looking forward to Oriental chilli for tea ( sad I know ).

Will google broccoli bread and get back to you on that! Xx

 

[RedHarri]

Week 3 - Days 5 & 6

Yesterday was apple and cinnamon porridge, vegetable soup (little, and I mean little, bits of red pepper. Yay!) and a mint chocolate shake for dinner. (And an incident which shall be known as carrotgate) Today has been maple and pecan porridge, oriental chilli soup and I'm due my chocolate carton at 6:15pm.

I've split up with my other half. I haven't seen him since Thursday when I asked him to spend the night at his (we don't actually live together). He can't handle the fact I'm losing weight and getting more confident. I don't want to go into it too much but suffice to say my CWPC has seen this happen before and he can jog on as far as I'm concerned.

Well, after my post yesterday, I lazed about for most of the day! Did a bit of the housework, had a look on ASOS for my "goal dress" and watched a lot of Grimm. It was nice not having to go out and I definitely made the most of it. I mixed up the chocolate mint shake in my big Starbucks cup with hot water and it tasted OK but I prefer the toffee and walnut. I had however left most of the powder at the bottom of the cup so maybe I'll try it again fully mixed and see if it's nicer.

Anyway, about 7pm I started to get a dull ache in my lower back. I drank another pint of water. By 3am when I still couldn't sleep I'd started panicking a bit. Overtired, alone, and fearing kidney failure, I ate a can of red lentil and carrot soup (87cal). I didn't want full on carbicide but thought the carrot would have enough carb to bring me out of ketosis. I texted my CWPC to let her know what I'd done and that I wanted to do 810 in future.

When I woke up this morning, in the cold light of day, I realised I had maybe overreacted slightly and the word "hypochondriac" bounced around in my head a lot. :ashamed0005:

I'm now thinking the dull ache may have been due to my inactivity or not having all of the powder mixed in my last shake? It definitely was NOT my kidneys. I've been to the mother's for a green tea today and she has banned me from reading medical advice on the internet...

So I'm sticking with SS as planned and will put this little incident behind me. Tomorrow is a new day and it's also weigh-in day...

Stolen Motivation of the (Yester) Day: No matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everybody on the couch

Stolen Motivation of the Day: A diet is like a marriage, you can't cheat on it and expect it to work

 

[hayley29]

Oh no red!! How long had you been together? Hope your ok!!
I can relate to the jealously factor I had a big row with my OH at ascot as he got jealous I went to the bar with a guy in our group it was completely innocent and he admitted In the end I looked really good and it made him insecure and got jealous over something so silly! Just glad we don't often go out as I can't deal with that all the time!!

Sounds like your still well on track and I'm glad your feeling better now I'm sure it wasn't your kidneys Hun but I read into things too much!

Argh getting food cravings but its silly as I was fed up with food yesterday so im downing the water to forget about it all xx

 

[*Cupcake*]

Red, so sorry. I do hope you are ok. I don't claim to have any understanding of the opposite sex - but it's his loss. Glad you have support.


Hope you have had a great Cambridge weekend - I'm chewing my bar for all it's worth, beating off the food gremlins

Take care Hun xx

 

[Little Plum Duff]

Hi Red. Along with everyone else I'm really hoping you're ok! Do what you need to do for you and stay strong! I think the hypochondria hits us all at times - I wonder if it has anything to do with all the dire warnings you get from everyone when they hear what diet you're on? Keep up the good work!

 

[Kanga]

Aw Red, as the others have said, I hope you're ok? :hug: It most definitely is his loss! And I can jump on the hypochondriac wagon with you, I am awful for it.. epecially late at night when there i no-one around to straighten me out.. I can convince myself of all sorts! How have you gotten on today?

 

[*Cupcake*]

Hi Red. Hope all is well and weigh in was good. Keep strong! Xx

 

[RedHarri]

Week 3 - Day 7

Hi All, wow thank you, :grouphugg:your messages make me smile as always.

Today was apple and cinnamon porridge for breakfast, potato and leek soup for lunch and a chocolate carton for dinner.

I had a good day at work, one of those productive, paper-shifting kind of days. My boss also let me order the Access 2013 Bible so I'm looking forward to that being delivered tomorrow. (Oh, geekiness I know).

The artist now known as prat has texted me a few times, I've just replied I'm not interested, which I'm actually not. Three years and he thinks that of me? He can swivel...

Anyhoo, my CWPC has just left. The last time I'll see her for two weeks :cry:. I've got some bars, and I'm also 3lb lighter. Even after carrotgate. Very happy! :happy036: I'm also in the 11's, which my brain hasn't quite processed yet!

CWPC also said my hypochondriac episode is probably sodium deposits moving around in my body. Apparently it can cause cramp and muscle discomfort so at least I'll know what it is if I get it again. Bloody hours though? She said it's not unheard of and I am definitely back to being fine with the SS plan.

I've been thinking instead of a "goal dress" I might get some "goal jeans". None of my clothing currently cost more than £20 an item, (and that's dear!), I am a Primarni specialist. But I've been thinking after all my hard work I want to splurge, just once in my life, on a pair of 7's. Whenever I look at them I'll know how far I've come. Just a thought anyway. I'll probably shift from dress to jeans to dress over the next few months and end up with a jacket at the end of it.

Stolen Motivation of the Day: People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it :slap:

 

[*Cupcake*]

Wow Red - you are a strong woman! So pleased you lost, and have found the cause of your nocturnal discomforts. I never knew that minerals could be the cause!


I really like the idea of target jeans - I'm a wearer of the cheapest asda/Tesco jeans so to have a proper pair, in a slinky size - wow! That's a fab idea, and so much more practical than a dress which you might only pull out on certain occasions. I might have to steal that one from you

Have a fab day tomorrow xx

P.s. what is the potato and leek soup like?

 

[*Cupcake*]

Hope you are doing ok Red xx