Hello! Yes, starting day 3 here and already feeling so much more positive that I was. It's like I get into a vicious cycle of "I feel rubbish so I eat/drink rubbish so I feel rubbish so I eat/drink rubbish so I weigh more and feel like a failure so I might as well not try" etc etc
STOP ALREADY!!
Two days of LL packs and water and I'm already less bloated and less depressed. I can do this.
Question is, how do I stop myself before reaching the tipping point next time? For me it was the return of my bingo wings (I can feel them swaying gently as I type this - ugh!)... but instead of using that feeling to trigger more restrained behaviour, my irrational brain decided "oh well, told you so... might as well have X Y Z then"
Then the whole "I've got nothing to wear" thing starts again, which is so depressing. I even went and bought some bigger trousers on Monday because I was desperate :cry:. (Mind you, that was partly PMT-induced bloating and anxiety/panic I reckon!)
I've got a few goals to aim for: first one is a big family meal in April, with some distant second cousins who haven't seen me for two years (ie last time they saw me I was size 22). Then I'm going to NY for work in May - I am determined to be back to my ideal weight by then as I'll be meeting some US colleagues for the first time. Last time I went to NY was the trigger for me thinking seriously about LL (I was working for a different company then). You can see how I looked then on the "before" photo of me in a coloured top and white trousers. I want to go on the subway feeling slim!! (The tall gates to get in were a bit of a squeeze last time.)
Then the major goal is the summer. I didn't quite believe I'd made it to goal last year, if that makes sense, so it was only at the end of the summer that I started daring to wear short skirts and shorts and even (gasp) a bikini! I want to really enjoy it this year.
Sorry for the mega-screed. Maybe ketosis is setting in and I'm getting an energy boost?!
