Elvira
Mistress of the Dark
I am thoroughly miserable now.
I managed two whole weeks on SS 100% and now I have gone and muffed it up by eating.
I was thinking the whole time that I don't need to eat and that I am doing so well and don't want to ruin it but before I knew it I was eating pizza. It didn't even stop there. A whole day of eating crap later and my scales show a 5lbs gain. I am soooooo hoping that they are wrong.
But here's the thing, and I'm not trying to say it's not my fault because it is, but my OH actively encourages me to eat.
He has said several times that he is worried that when I get slim, I will leave him for someone else. The last time I did CD, I lost 7st and felt great. Our relationship took a massive dive though because he couldn't handle the male attention I was getting and said that I had changed and he didn't like the new me (attitude not body). This made me miserable and I started to eat again. 3st later, although feeling fat and gross again, our relationship was much stronger.
The other day he said to me that he didn't want me to go back to how I was when I lost the weight (he means confident, flirtatious and fun-the REAL me).
Is he sort of sabotaging me? Am I sabotaging myself? How can I overcome this?
Sorry for whinging on again x
I managed two whole weeks on SS 100% and now I have gone and muffed it up by eating.
I was thinking the whole time that I don't need to eat and that I am doing so well and don't want to ruin it but before I knew it I was eating pizza. It didn't even stop there. A whole day of eating crap later and my scales show a 5lbs gain. I am soooooo hoping that they are wrong.
But here's the thing, and I'm not trying to say it's not my fault because it is, but my OH actively encourages me to eat.
He has said several times that he is worried that when I get slim, I will leave him for someone else. The last time I did CD, I lost 7st and felt great. Our relationship took a massive dive though because he couldn't handle the male attention I was getting and said that I had changed and he didn't like the new me (attitude not body). This made me miserable and I started to eat again. 3st later, although feeling fat and gross again, our relationship was much stronger.
The other day he said to me that he didn't want me to go back to how I was when I lost the weight (he means confident, flirtatious and fun-the REAL me).
Is he sort of sabotaging me? Am I sabotaging myself? How can I overcome this?
Sorry for whinging on again x
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