Russiandoll
Carpe diem
I remember when I joined this site four years ago there was only a handful of us (if I remember rightly, we came over from the Discovery Health website whilst it was being refurbished). I was on Cambridge and full of enthusiasm - it was my 'golden time'. Not once did I fall off the wagon and 10 months later, I was transformed physically ... but unfortunately, not mentally.
Although I was 8 sizes smaller, my head wasn't in a good place and it didn't take much for me to trip up spectacularly. Needless to say, I gradually regained a fair amount of the weight I'd lost and now here I am, two years later, having another run at Cambridge to get to where I want - no NEED - to be. It worked for me once and this time my head is in a better place - I don't expect perfection anymore ... my best really is enough.
I'm not aiming for model thin - happier in my skin will do. And I know I can't achieve a toned, tight body ... time and my weight have taken their toll there ... but I can hope for and expect a better quality of life.
I said once that a weight problem is only a problem if it's causing a problem. All the time you're doing everything you want without your weight getting in the way, you can live with it and finding the motivation to lose weight is almost impossible.
However, once your weight is creating problems and preventing you from doing the things you want to do, that's when most people stand a better chance of success when it comes to putting that right. And right now, my weight is causing me some problems.
I work at a large school with many flights of stairs. By the end of the day, I'm totally shattered. I get home, sit down and am completely incapable of doing anything else that day. The dog remains unwalked, the laundry remains unwashed and it's all I can do to throw some frozen convenience food into the oven for my husband and daughter for dinner. That has to change - that's no quality of life.
Anyway, having decided that things must change, the next step was to realise this wasn't going to happen all by itself and I was going to have to make a conscious effort to bring about that change.
So this morning, I restarted Cambridge for what seems like the hundredth time. I need to dig deep and find a reason why, this time, I'll succeed when I failed on all the other restarts. And, after giving it some serious thought, I think that it's all down to the 'problems' my weight is now causing. I can't live with them - simple.
So here I am on a brand new day 1 - I'm resisting the temptation to say 'yet again' because I need to put behind me everything that went before ... all my previous reasoning and motivation doesn't mean much today. Because that was then - and this is NOW.
Eyes on the prize and onto day 2 ...
Although I was 8 sizes smaller, my head wasn't in a good place and it didn't take much for me to trip up spectacularly. Needless to say, I gradually regained a fair amount of the weight I'd lost and now here I am, two years later, having another run at Cambridge to get to where I want - no NEED - to be. It worked for me once and this time my head is in a better place - I don't expect perfection anymore ... my best really is enough.
I'm not aiming for model thin - happier in my skin will do. And I know I can't achieve a toned, tight body ... time and my weight have taken their toll there ... but I can hope for and expect a better quality of life.
I said once that a weight problem is only a problem if it's causing a problem. All the time you're doing everything you want without your weight getting in the way, you can live with it and finding the motivation to lose weight is almost impossible.
However, once your weight is creating problems and preventing you from doing the things you want to do, that's when most people stand a better chance of success when it comes to putting that right. And right now, my weight is causing me some problems.
I work at a large school with many flights of stairs. By the end of the day, I'm totally shattered. I get home, sit down and am completely incapable of doing anything else that day. The dog remains unwalked, the laundry remains unwashed and it's all I can do to throw some frozen convenience food into the oven for my husband and daughter for dinner. That has to change - that's no quality of life.
Anyway, having decided that things must change, the next step was to realise this wasn't going to happen all by itself and I was going to have to make a conscious effort to bring about that change.
So this morning, I restarted Cambridge for what seems like the hundredth time. I need to dig deep and find a reason why, this time, I'll succeed when I failed on all the other restarts. And, after giving it some serious thought, I think that it's all down to the 'problems' my weight is now causing. I can't live with them - simple.
So here I am on a brand new day 1 - I'm resisting the temptation to say 'yet again' because I need to put behind me everything that went before ... all my previous reasoning and motivation doesn't mean much today. Because that was then - and this is NOW.
Eyes on the prize and onto day 2 ...
