targetforever said:
Had a good week up to now, whilst making dinner tonight, had this sudden feeling of fed up-ness and ate 4 digestive chocolate bars - why?? I can usually distract myself by doing another job etc. Feel so cross with myself and I do know how to draw a line under it and carry on, but I was just wondering - what kind of thing sets other people off down the wrong path ?
Hey Hun - I am with you, I have been there and done that, and worse, a million times over. The other day I forgot to take the rind off of my bacon before cooking it (I lurve me some rind!) and so took it off after cooking - did it go in the bin? No it went in my fat gob! 3 rashers worth of rind down the hatch! And so I asked myself the same question as you....Why? I dont comfort eat, So it can't be an emotive response. I have these last couple of days come to realise something that is within me, I call it The Kraken! It's a beast inside me that sometimes releases itself, the Kraken was actually released last night, I was working late and anything that changes in my day, that sends me off kilter just triggers the beast. Work laid on some nibbles, now I didn't just take a few handfuls...I went to town on them, I was like a woman possessed. I had been 100% for days and I ruined my run in about 10 mins! And so begs the question WHY?
My '**** it' moments seriously do come when I have a good SW week but the scales don't show it, I tend to balls it up further by having a blow out, but I don't just go for one day, I tend to go two or sometimes three days.
My other times are like I have said before, if my day isn't regimented like my usual days, like if I have to work late, or there are drinks after work, or I am out in pubs or restaurants with friends or family, when they eat what they want but I 'should' try and eat wisely when all I want is a burger or pizza or something creamy thats where my '**** it' moment comes to play and the kraken gets released. When I am seriously om SW and want to stick to it, I tend to lock myself away so as to not put temptation in my way, sadly that means I have felt the need to let my friends down by not going out with them, because I know that I will be hungry and I can't just be ordering any old thing from the menu. There are loads of things going on after work at the moment and I have said no to all of them, which is really sad, because I am missing out on good times. But until I drop a certain amount of weight, I can't afford to keep maintaining. I need to take drastic measures now and then once I am happier with my weight I will go out, right now everything is too tempting.
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