So annoyed at myself...will get to goal and will stay there this time!

Discussion in 'Slim and Save - Diaries' started by <3_my_cat_x, 8 January 2014.

  1. <3_my_cat_x

    <3_my_cat_x Well-Known Member

    Hi all,

    Some of you may remember me. I did SnS on and off last year mixed with low GI. I got down to about 12 stones for my wedding in July and was really happy with how I looked and the photos etc. I know 12 stone is still too big for my height (only 5 ft 2!) but at my heaviest I have been 17 st 5 so I was pleased with that.

    Anyway, after all inclusive honeymoon, followed by months of bingeing and Christmas I am now 15 st 6.75 :O To say I am shocked/depressed/ashamed would be an understatement! I started SnS on Monday gone (6th) and lasted till 3 pm when I went back to low gi. However last night and this morning I have just felt SO depressed and tearful about my weight that I have decided enough is enough. When I got into ketosis last time I really found I wasn't hungry and I felt great on the diet so I just need to get back to that stage. I NEED to do this. I am sat here close to tears (sorry for being a misery!) and am just feeling more determined than ever.

    I feel I am still eating too much on low gi (following tesco diets) and am still obsessed about food and shovelling it in :( I need to remove food I think.

    I want to break it all down, so for now I want to just get to Monday. If I can get to Monday then I will be in ketosis and I will have survived a weekend. I did agree to going out drinking Sat night but now I think I will let her know I can still go out but no eating/drinking for me!

    I know I will be hungry but in all honesty I am not gonna starve am I?! I am so overweight I couldn't possibly!!

    Before I found Minis so helpful to stay on track so am gonna be on here a lot again - following you all and hopefully getting inspiration and motivation and maybe even giving some myself at some stage!!!!

    Hope everyone is ok and look forward to 'meeting' you all and getting this weight off.

  2. Zoe66

    Zoe66 Well-Known Member

    I know the feeling I'm also fed up with myself tried every diet going loose it put it on etc etc I'm on day three now and so far going well bit of a strop last night as kids had hot chocolate and munching on biscuits but went and painted my nails not their fault but I get resentful !! Keep think in my head would like to get into my summer clothes this year and feel more confident I try and hang out as late as I can for first shake as the evenings are the worse for me keep going hear if you need a chat we can do this ?xxx
  3. <3_my_cat_x

    <3_my_cat_x Well-Known Member

    Thanks Zoe :) We CAN def do this - We have done it before! I hold out for ages till first pack too!

    Well done for getting to day 3 and resisting hot choc and biccies! Amazing! :)

  4. Zoe66

    Zoe66 Well-Known Member

    Thankyou xx just taken kids to school going to do abit of housework then have a caramel shake just need to keep busy feel tired today would like to go back to bed so what are you going to do simplicity or lifestyle xx
  5. <3_my_cat_x

    <3_my_cat_x Well-Known Member

    Lifestyle for me hun :) I need the meal in the evening - also I like the eat water noodles - especially in the first few days before ketosis! How about you? x
  6. Zoe66

    Zoe66 Well-Known Member

    I'm on simplicity but will probably throw in a lifestyle at weekends if I really struggle will change to lifestyle it suits me at mo I'm one of those people who can not eat during day just live on coffee and pig out in evening so the shakes suit me might try a chilli pk for lunch see how I feel and get some slim rice if I can find it have u tried it ??xxx
  7. Tara27

    Tara27 Well-Known Member

    I started on Monday myself.
    I can't remember where i heard it, but someone said, think of hunger as ur bodys way of adjusting to losing FAT. Now every time I get a hunger pang I think to myself BURN THAT FAT B***H!! Lol. And like u said, ur not going to starve, and hunger doesn't actually 'hurt' does it. We're just so used to filling our face at the slightest tummy rumble. I actually embrace it now..... In my mind its exciting as I know the diets working and I get another pint of water down me.
    I've been tearful and depressed like you, so enough was enough. I need that control and today I'm really positive. Good luck babe xxx

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  8. <3_my_cat_x

    <3_my_cat_x Well-Known Member

    Hey Zoe - responded in your thread about slim rice/noodles!

    Hey Tara - thanks for stopping by!

    Well done for getting to day 3 :) This is really day one AGAIN for me lol I have made it longer than I did Monday so far tho! I got to 2 ish on Monday and gave in (ate sensibly low gi but still not sns!). Today am feeling much more motivated. I think stuffing my face on Sunday with ALL my fave carb laden foods didn't help! Today has def been better!

    Haha! Yep I need to embrace hunger! Although I know it won't last long - once am in ketosis it will be a LOT better. Dreading the weekend though! Oh well, might allow myself a few cheeky vodkas! I know were not supposed to drink in ketosis and I'm not advocating it but I did in the past and was ok.

    How you getting on today hun? x
  9. Tara27

    Tara27 Well-Known Member

    Dreading this weekend too! I only get one weekend off a month and its this one :( usually treat ourselves to a meal out on fri, then have a night out sat and kebab on way home lol! I think i'll suggest going to cinema and bring a can of coke zero :)

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  10. slim_and_happy

    slim_and_happy Well-Known Member

    Hey. Stopping by to show support. I remember you from the last time.
    Look Hun. The thing is.. YOU know you can do it. You've done it before and you can do it again. It's all in your head. This diet is 100% mental. I'm on day 11 and I don't even know when the time went. Just take each day or each hour if you have to at a time and stay positive.
    Will be rooting for ya!

    M x
  11. <3_my_cat_x

    <3_my_cat_x Well-Known Member

    Thank you hunny! I remember you too! This time I'm determined to do the maintenance programme. I don't think that an all inc hol after all those weeks of deprivation helped! Kept saying to myself this is a once in a lifetime hol etc so I made the most of it and then my stomach got used to eating loads again.

    Wow day 11 well done! Can't wait till I am there! x
  12. Zoe66

    Zoe66 Well-Known Member

    Wow some really positive comments I've only just joined this group and it is really helping me thankyou xx well I have one shake left to go had a chilli and did some swede chips with it and cauliflower rice loved the chips but think I prefer cauliflower just boiled normally it soaked up all my chilli !!! Managed to say no to mcdonalds today hubby and kids sat and are it while I cooked my dinner yay go me !!! usually have cheated by now BUT SO WANT TO DO THIS !! I feel fat and frumpy and need my confidence back with all your support and me to you all I'm sure we can do this good luck for tomorrow my weigh in day Monday so got to get through weekend lol xxx
  13. Sammy33

    Sammy33 Well-Known Member

    Hi hun,

    Firstly congratulations on your wedding and well done for getting yourself down to a weight that you were happy with. It's such a magical day and those photos are for life. - and now they can be your inspriation, or 'thinspiration'!!

    I can relate soooo much. I lost weight on the Cambridge diet for my wedding and felt great on my wedding day. Then the downward spiral started as soon as I stepped on the plane for our honeymoon!! I was drinking beer for breakfast for goodness sake! Lol. And it was Vegas - so huge food portions.
    I tried to get back on Cambridge but without the ultimate wedding goal in my sights I had no motivation. Weight crept up and up and within a year I was back at my starting point having regained every single pound I had lost and in effect wasting the hundreds of pounds I had spent!!

    I started SnS in September after gaining an additional 4 stone while pregnant! (Yep, all malteasers apart from a 6lb baby!)
    I've now lost the lot and am getting close to my target.

    I can see that you are in the right mind to do this, you've had enough and have accepted that a change is a must.
    It's hard without a specific goal ahead (i.e: a wedding), when previously this was your motivator. I struggled before I fell pregnant because I didn't really know 'why' I was dieting. I know that sounds strange.
    But from September I have been pretty focused (had a few blips and planned days off) and I guess what I'm trying to say is I was where you are now. Enough is a enough.

    Use your wedding photos for motivation and also the memories of how you felt.
    Also honeymoon pictures.
    Take it day by day.
    And as Clinquant said in a different thread - being hungry is not a life or death emergency!

    You know you'll feel hungry. It's no shocker. Embrace the hunger. Glug the water. And once ketosis kicks in you'll start to feel happier that you stuck with it.

    It's a hard diet, but we're made of tough stuff!
    Sorry for the ramble! Just wanted to let you know that I get it! I was there. ;) hugs. Xx
  14. slim_and_happy

    slim_and_happy Well-Known Member

    You're all amazing!

    M x

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