Hi all,
I am so frustrated with myself-
having spent the last 3 months (since post Xmas) struggling to restart SS I have actually grown in fatness and weight since then.Last year I stuck to CD 100% and lost 4 and a half stone. Now I am close to having regained all of that.
Everyday at the moment is like a battleground with my good voice/bad voice, with my bad voice ultimately winning, telling me I deserve a venti latte PLUS muffin, and then my day is "ruined" so I may as well eat whatever I like.
I have so many goals coming up- 1 weeks hols to visit my brother in San fran (in 2 and a half weeks) and my 30th birthday "treat" a week in NY (supposed to be shopping) mid may.
I am so mad I feel like cancelling both but can't because of DH and my dad whos taking me to SF. I can't believe I will experience another holiday of feeling uncomfortable because of my size and yet ITS ALL MY FAULT.
Honestly do not know what to do for the best right now... Know I want to be 5 stones slimmer... know that this is a brilliant diet... don't know how to tackle the next few weeks...
Sorry to rant... any advice appreciated.
x
I am so frustrated with myself-
having spent the last 3 months (since post Xmas) struggling to restart SS I have actually grown in fatness and weight since then.Last year I stuck to CD 100% and lost 4 and a half stone. Now I am close to having regained all of that.
Everyday at the moment is like a battleground with my good voice/bad voice, with my bad voice ultimately winning, telling me I deserve a venti latte PLUS muffin, and then my day is "ruined" so I may as well eat whatever I like.
I have so many goals coming up- 1 weeks hols to visit my brother in San fran (in 2 and a half weeks) and my 30th birthday "treat" a week in NY (supposed to be shopping) mid may.
I am so mad I feel like cancelling both but can't because of DH and my dad whos taking me to SF. I can't believe I will experience another holiday of feeling uncomfortable because of my size and yet ITS ALL MY FAULT.
Honestly do not know what to do for the best right now... Know I want to be 5 stones slimmer... know that this is a brilliant diet... don't know how to tackle the next few weeks...
Sorry to rant... any advice appreciated.
x