Stackhead
Slow and steady...
Ladies and gentlemen of Minimins,
I hate writing this, really I do but i'm in a deep dark pit at the minute and i'm hoping you can throw a few torches down for me.
I've been on SW since the end of January and i'm losing very slowly. I've just hit the 2 stone mark (well not so much after this week). The rate of weight loss doesn't bother me, i'm having a life, going out and enjoying myself so the fact that i'm lighter than I was at the beginning of the year is a fantastic thing.
My issue is now. I have no motivation to follow the plan and i'm finding myself needlessly cheating - having a slice a bread and butter while i'm cooking tea - i'm not hungry I just want it. Or if I don't cheat, i'm not following plan at all.
So here I am facing, for the first time, a monthly gain. I.e. unless something drastic happens, I will be either the same or weigh more in September then I did in August. And it's just hit me, right now. and it's all I can do not to reach for food.
It started when I was talking to my friend at work (who is doing WW) and she was talking about getting to target, which is 7lbs away, taking her total weight loss to 1 1/2 stone. A fantastic acheivement and i'm really pleased for her.
BUT it dawned on me that I have over 100lbs before I reach my target and that it was going to stretch over years, not months. Since then i've pretty much been on a downward spiral. No matter what I do, I can't shake it off. And i'm starting to annoy myself.
So really this post is about a few things.
1. I think I just needed to get this out into the open, typing it has been fairly theraputic.
2. I need a kick up the backside, a massive one. Does anyone have big boots?
3. What do you do when the task before you i.e. the weight to lose overwhelms you? How do you put it all into perspective?
If you made it to the bottom then well done you and thanks for reading. I already feel a little bit better.
Stack. xx
I hate writing this, really I do but i'm in a deep dark pit at the minute and i'm hoping you can throw a few torches down for me.
I've been on SW since the end of January and i'm losing very slowly. I've just hit the 2 stone mark (well not so much after this week). The rate of weight loss doesn't bother me, i'm having a life, going out and enjoying myself so the fact that i'm lighter than I was at the beginning of the year is a fantastic thing.
My issue is now. I have no motivation to follow the plan and i'm finding myself needlessly cheating - having a slice a bread and butter while i'm cooking tea - i'm not hungry I just want it. Or if I don't cheat, i'm not following plan at all.
So here I am facing, for the first time, a monthly gain. I.e. unless something drastic happens, I will be either the same or weigh more in September then I did in August. And it's just hit me, right now. and it's all I can do not to reach for food.
It started when I was talking to my friend at work (who is doing WW) and she was talking about getting to target, which is 7lbs away, taking her total weight loss to 1 1/2 stone. A fantastic acheivement and i'm really pleased for her.
BUT it dawned on me that I have over 100lbs before I reach my target and that it was going to stretch over years, not months. Since then i've pretty much been on a downward spiral. No matter what I do, I can't shake it off. And i'm starting to annoy myself.
So really this post is about a few things.
1. I think I just needed to get this out into the open, typing it has been fairly theraputic.
2. I need a kick up the backside, a massive one. Does anyone have big boots?
3. What do you do when the task before you i.e. the weight to lose overwhelms you? How do you put it all into perspective?
If you made it to the bottom then well done you and thanks for reading. I already feel a little bit better.
Stack. xx