Helen
Full Member
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As some of you know I have been really struggling lately to stick to the LL program. I had a week off then two days back on total abstinence then lost the plot today - not in a major way but enough that I will definately show a gain at Weigh-in tomorrow.
Anyway I decided to write down my problems and this is my version of a thought record. I would like anyone with any advise to please post it here for me - I am beginning to feel desperate.
This is what I wrote :
OK I am having a thought here and it could be a biggy!
2 days SSing then I go and ruin it all on the day before weigh-in. Why?
Well 3 reasons I think:
1) bought some filter coffee and want to drink it all the time. Have it
with cream and sugar and that then sets off the urge to eat other
things.
2) Will show a gain at weigh-in tomorrow anyway so what the heck
(think this is a hot thought)
3) Thinking about transferring to CD so feel like I need a pre-diet
binge - old habits die hard.
1st problem easy to solve - give DH rest of coffee for work. Done. Throw away cream. Done. Have informed him no more "real" coffee till diet over.
Here is the thought - just because the food is available it doesn't mean I have to eat it!
Lightbulb moment!
I don't have to eat the biscuits or the cheese or the chocolate. Some of it will be eaten by someone else but that doesn't matter I can buy some more in the future when I am not in abstinence. Some of it can stay here untouched until I am eating again. I do not NEED the food. The food will not help me get to goal and will not make me happy. Being in abstinence will. Costa coffee will still be there in 3 months, I do not have to go and buy some tomorrow. I do not have to have it NOW.
I have not nibbled on DD's leftover roast potatoes so that is a good start. Just a pity I didn't have this lightbulb moment several hours ago!
Great I thought - all was well for several hours then had a setback which resulted in consumption of several things though not a binge by any standards.
I then wrote:
It is only food, I put it in at 1 end and it comes out the other. Why am I wasting my time and energy thinking about it? Why is it controlling my life, it is actually about the most unimportant aspect of it.
Here I totally ran out of anything approaching rational thought and decided to see if mini's would come up trumps again and help me out.
My most urgent thoughts are
1 that I will have gained tomorrow. This is a certainty I don't know
why I am wasting energy thinking about it. I have gained since last
weigh-in 2 weeks ago and haven't lost it all yet.
2 is that I was thinking of transferring to CD and do have a meeting
set up for tomorrow after my LL meeting. My LL group only consists
of 1 other person now and she will be going into management within
the month though we will still be together until she finishes the
management program (though I still need to lose about 3 stone
more). I usually have to work later on a monday as I go in late after
my meeting which means I have to pay for nursery to pick DD up
from school then I pick her up 5.30 and take her to Brownies. This is
a pain for me and a long day for her and would be eliminated by
transferring to CD. Plus I would be saving a heap of money. However
I am unsure whether I am thinking of transferring to CD in order to
eat and whether the counselling on LL is still worth having at this
stage. I have been very dubious about this previously but given my
recent deviation from the LL path of rightiousness I am now thinking
that maybe any counselling is better than none.
Basically this has been going round and round in my head all day and is driving me to distraction. I don't know whether to go to CD meeting or cancel and hate being this "disorganised"
Any words of wisdom would be very gratefully received!
Thanks
As some of you know I have been really struggling lately to stick to the LL program. I had a week off then two days back on total abstinence then lost the plot today - not in a major way but enough that I will definately show a gain at Weigh-in tomorrow.
Anyway I decided to write down my problems and this is my version of a thought record. I would like anyone with any advise to please post it here for me - I am beginning to feel desperate.
This is what I wrote :
OK I am having a thought here and it could be a biggy!
2 days SSing then I go and ruin it all on the day before weigh-in. Why?
Well 3 reasons I think:
1) bought some filter coffee and want to drink it all the time. Have it
with cream and sugar and that then sets off the urge to eat other
things.
2) Will show a gain at weigh-in tomorrow anyway so what the heck
(think this is a hot thought)
3) Thinking about transferring to CD so feel like I need a pre-diet
binge - old habits die hard.
1st problem easy to solve - give DH rest of coffee for work. Done. Throw away cream. Done. Have informed him no more "real" coffee till diet over.
Here is the thought - just because the food is available it doesn't mean I have to eat it!
Lightbulb moment!
I don't have to eat the biscuits or the cheese or the chocolate. Some of it will be eaten by someone else but that doesn't matter I can buy some more in the future when I am not in abstinence. Some of it can stay here untouched until I am eating again. I do not NEED the food. The food will not help me get to goal and will not make me happy. Being in abstinence will. Costa coffee will still be there in 3 months, I do not have to go and buy some tomorrow. I do not have to have it NOW.
I have not nibbled on DD's leftover roast potatoes so that is a good start. Just a pity I didn't have this lightbulb moment several hours ago!
Great I thought - all was well for several hours then had a setback which resulted in consumption of several things though not a binge by any standards.
I then wrote:
It is only food, I put it in at 1 end and it comes out the other. Why am I wasting my time and energy thinking about it? Why is it controlling my life, it is actually about the most unimportant aspect of it.
Here I totally ran out of anything approaching rational thought and decided to see if mini's would come up trumps again and help me out.
My most urgent thoughts are
1 that I will have gained tomorrow. This is a certainty I don't know
why I am wasting energy thinking about it. I have gained since last
weigh-in 2 weeks ago and haven't lost it all yet.
2 is that I was thinking of transferring to CD and do have a meeting
set up for tomorrow after my LL meeting. My LL group only consists
of 1 other person now and she will be going into management within
the month though we will still be together until she finishes the
management program (though I still need to lose about 3 stone
more). I usually have to work later on a monday as I go in late after
my meeting which means I have to pay for nursery to pick DD up
from school then I pick her up 5.30 and take her to Brownies. This is
a pain for me and a long day for her and would be eliminated by
transferring to CD. Plus I would be saving a heap of money. However
I am unsure whether I am thinking of transferring to CD in order to
eat and whether the counselling on LL is still worth having at this
stage. I have been very dubious about this previously but given my
recent deviation from the LL path of rightiousness I am now thinking
that maybe any counselling is better than none.
Basically this has been going round and round in my head all day and is driving me to distraction. I don't know whether to go to CD meeting or cancel and hate being this "disorganised"
Any words of wisdom would be very gratefully received!
Thanks