Jody- that sounds awful! They must have been insanely strong!
I only ever use over the counter stuff as when I spoke to my GP about it she said the perscribed ones are so addictive (you become entirely reliant in them) that she would rather I stuck to Nytol. I get bouts of chronic insomnia but.am fine sometimes for months too.
Getting loads of fibre through veg and am having beans for my HExB pretty much daily :/ discussed this with Cheeky- we both used to poo way more often pre-SW despite having 'less fibre' then...!
Good news is the sennokot kicked in last night and I shifted half a weeks worth
LOL sorry for that info.
I am about to re-WI when I find the courage to get out of bed. Annother 3am nihht last night- we got into bed at 1am and just didnt stop chatting for two hours! It's been so non stop that even though we spent all day together today we havent found time to discuss plans for anniversary/xmas/booking this Paris trip for NEXT WEEK!
Safe to say though that this busy week has already done wonders for how I feel about the relationship again. Distraction is always key for my depression too, it has been really paradoxical to be so busy after the slew of 3 months constant editing!
So yeah, I am feeling re-energized about the relagionship again. Distance/space from each other is REALLY important and when I called him out on him smothering me by getting upset about me spending a week busy woth friends etc, he soon stepped back and shut up about it! And now he is realising quite how beneficial it is for him, too, when I go do stuff without him.
Yesterday was Lola's birthday, same sort of chilled family get together as for Lucy's party a couple of weeks ago, but it was less dull for some reason... Less people were there so could talk to my family more I guess!
I was faaaairly giod about what treats I ate but has quite a lot of dried fruit which I know is mega synful! At least fibrous though right??
other than that I had half a small piece of cake (just had the icing, not the spounge, so that was probably gluten free ish heh) and a jacket potato with cheese and *gasp* BAKED BEANS! I always used to hate baked beans and woukd try them ever so.often.and just be like "bleurgh!" as I hated the texture and the sauce. Recently I've been really into other beans though so I was keen to give them a try rather than the mayo soaked tuna sweetcorn option- and loved them!! I did make then rather cheesy though, probably over did the hexA for a EE day but can you have baked beans as a hexB? Could have been a red day if so.
Lunch was leftover spicy chicken meddley with salad and beansprouts. Was so hungry yesterday- all day I was famished!
So excited to buy baked beans now LOL. I want them with my fry up! Cant believe I loved them- my dad always hated them (about the only food he wouldnt eat) so I had started to assume it was in my genes!
Before the party G and I did some xmas shopping which was pretty fun
enjoyed doing that together and will go today too as there are loads of shops near the cineworld where I am meeting my friend tonight.
Also on the way back from Lola's we went to our huge Tesco where we got some more pressies and a treeee! We're going to deck the halls/etx this afternoon when I get my lazy ass outta bed.
Took my 5htp again for the first time last night and althouhh my mind was buzzing and it took ages to fall asleep, I woke up feeling so well rested for oce and had LOADS of dreams (the 5htp helps your body release seretonin to combat depression and it can trigger extra vivid dreams!)
Cheeky- def going to do the walk more often! Usually am in a rush or have a heavy camera bag so get the very regular bus instead, but yeah- such a waste of money!! I just get sososo bored walking
that time I was reading my kobo which helped pass the time!
Feeling good this morning. Hoping that post-poo re-WI will reduce some of the previous damage now.
Then time for xmassy tree decorating, tidying and Paris booking- woop!
