Hi All...
I'm new to these boards but I need somewhere to put my feelings down as I can't talk to my friends about this...
After putting on 5st during my pregnancy with my son and the sudden death of my mum in 2004. I started my diet in June 2006 and between then and August 2007 managed to lose 3 st 10lbs needing to lose another 2 st to hit my so called 'ideal weight'. Then we had a lot of stress in our lives and since then have put 1st 10lbs back on. So I need to lose nearly 4 st.
I've felt really down and feel like one big flump for the last few weeks and went back to my diet 3 weeks ago and things are going fine - weigh in in a week. I have the support of my partner and I'm in no doubt that he loves me, but last Thursday night he let it slip that at his old work place they used to refer to him as a 'fat lover' because of me! Now if they were teenagers I'ld probably be able to laugh, but they were all between 30 and 50, my partner says their wives weren't skinny or anything special.
I can't begin to describe how I feel, I hate myself and things have been tense between us as a result of this revalation.
I'm not sure why this is affecting me so much, God I know I'm overweight, but this has left me feeling like a 16 year old instead of a 35 year old woman!
Not sure what I expect you to say to me, but I needed to get this out as I'm becoming an emotional wreck with it playing on my mind.
Jay x
I'm new to these boards but I need somewhere to put my feelings down as I can't talk to my friends about this...
After putting on 5st during my pregnancy with my son and the sudden death of my mum in 2004. I started my diet in June 2006 and between then and August 2007 managed to lose 3 st 10lbs needing to lose another 2 st to hit my so called 'ideal weight'. Then we had a lot of stress in our lives and since then have put 1st 10lbs back on. So I need to lose nearly 4 st.
I've felt really down and feel like one big flump for the last few weeks and went back to my diet 3 weeks ago and things are going fine - weigh in in a week. I have the support of my partner and I'm in no doubt that he loves me, but last Thursday night he let it slip that at his old work place they used to refer to him as a 'fat lover' because of me! Now if they were teenagers I'ld probably be able to laugh, but they were all between 30 and 50, my partner says their wives weren't skinny or anything special.
I can't begin to describe how I feel, I hate myself and things have been tense between us as a result of this revalation.
I'm not sure why this is affecting me so much, God I know I'm overweight, but this has left me feeling like a 16 year old instead of a 35 year old woman!
Not sure what I expect you to say to me, but I needed to get this out as I'm becoming an emotional wreck with it playing on my mind.
Jay x