SPF Diary - Goodbye to the old me...

Well here goes with the diary! I am 29 years old and live in Essex with my husband and 8 year old step daughter. Today I started the Cambridge Diet for the second time (last time was very sucessful for a month then went on holiday and lost the plot :( )

This time will be different :p I am going to come on here and share my feeling rather than using food as my saviour - for reward, to make me feel better or just cause it's there! I don't think things will be easy but I have support around me (My mum has lost 4 stone this year on Cambridge and is doing really well in maintenance)

The main reasons I want to do this
  1. I am fed up with being fat ruling everything in my life. I don't want to go out, I don't want to have fun, I neglect my friends and if I am honest my family too because I hate the way I look and feel.
  2. I want to be taken seriously at work - again mainly my problem but I feel that I am seem as a "fat slob" and envy my collegues who look smart in the office every day. I am a PA/Office Manager in London but I would like to progress and have confidence in myself to do it!
  3. I don't want to be fat and thirty
  4. I really want a baby but I even put that off because I want people to know I am pregnant and not fat! I suffer from PCOS and I know my weight will hinder my chances so I need to get healthy before I go any further.
  5. I want to be able to look in a mirror and like what I see :eek:
So thats that I suppose, going to keep coming back and looking at those reasons everytime I feel like caving in.

My start weight is 18 stone 4lbs and I am a size 22/24 (HUGE bottom :rolleyes: ) My target is 11 stone and a size 12/14 - have been this before and as I am 5ft 7 I think it is about right. Don't care how long it takes, just going to get there.

Wish me luck!

I can do it!


Get Rid of this ad and join in on the conversation for free today! Tap here!


Hi Yer SPF
Welcome and your amongst some fantastic people like your self here who know how you feel .
I have yoyed dieted for 18 years and im only 36 :eek: I did CD last year like you was successful lost nearly 3 stone in 3 months and regained due to moving/work night out .
So here I am once again.I started LL yesterday Im on my 1st day of SSING so I'll be going through the same as you :) .
I too suffer from PCOS i tried 8 years for my 1st daughter 18 moths for my 2nd and my 3rd happened after 10 days LOL
So you can have the family you desire Im proof I never ever thought I'd have children and now Im blessed with 3 beautiful girls :D :D :D
I wish luck in your journey to your new life Im here if you need a chat like us all the support here is amazing