Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
*sigh* - I was 1.5lbs over target (9st 8.5lbs) before i went on holiday two weeks ago. I went away, gained 8.5lbs at the next weigh in, last week.. I resolved to shift some weight this week- feeling like i had made a breakthrough emotionally by being able to accept the weight gain and take responsibility for it without being upset, slightly dissapointed but not deeply upset. My main meals have been 100% all week, up until today. However i ahve continuesly made bad choices, chocolates, popcorn, crisps. The list goes on. Often clocking up up to 30 syns a day.
I could quiet easily be a stone heavier this week, i weigh in tomorrow.
I am so mad with myself. If i make peace with 1 lb per week weight loss as my goal, i find myself eating too lax- if i aim for big losses, i get upset too easily when i dont have it and get impatient. My relationship with food is out of control, my emotional eating is rife and is controlling me and i feel as though im falling apart. I LOVE the plan, but what the hell is wrong with me.
Why cant i just give myself the kick up the ass i needed and get on with it. How did i managed that 'untouchable' determination and motivation to loose my origanal 5st, when nothing could stop me.. but now, i can last 3 weeks at most before my willpower is so poor it only takes a whiff off the bakery and all of a sudden my entire week goes to pot.
Im not sure what i want, some advise.. i suppose.
I can only try to explain how difficult it is to get that motivation back, when youv already worked hard and got there only to put some back on. I feel so unbelievably dissapointed with myself, my self confidence and self esteem has taken such a bashing.
Things are going SO well elsewhere, my work, my home life.. but why cant i get this on track too?
I could quiet easily be a stone heavier this week, i weigh in tomorrow.
I am so mad with myself. If i make peace with 1 lb per week weight loss as my goal, i find myself eating too lax- if i aim for big losses, i get upset too easily when i dont have it and get impatient. My relationship with food is out of control, my emotional eating is rife and is controlling me and i feel as though im falling apart. I LOVE the plan, but what the hell is wrong with me.
Why cant i just give myself the kick up the ass i needed and get on with it. How did i managed that 'untouchable' determination and motivation to loose my origanal 5st, when nothing could stop me.. but now, i can last 3 weeks at most before my willpower is so poor it only takes a whiff off the bakery and all of a sudden my entire week goes to pot.
Im not sure what i want, some advise.. i suppose.
I can only try to explain how difficult it is to get that motivation back, when youv already worked hard and got there only to put some back on. I feel so unbelievably dissapointed with myself, my self confidence and self esteem has taken such a bashing.
Things are going SO well elsewhere, my work, my home life.. but why cant i get this on track too?