hello. I posted a week or so ago and am seeing my CDC this weekend. starting the diet on sunday. i was excited at first (and still am) bt the closer i get to sunday the more i keep telling myself it is a quick fix fad which will leave me depressed and irritable. a voice in my head keeps telling me that almost every day there is a thread on here from a restarter which shows that it only works for so long as you pay for the meals and do not cheat, and part of me thinks i will feel really depressed on the diet as having a social life will be hard.
however, reading everyone's posts is inspiring to me and there is a bigger part of me which is just so excited to be taking charge of myself. i try to motivate myself by saying that this time in a fortnight i might be more than half a stone lighter. i am determined to use my time away from food to re-educate myself. i have periods of being a normal weight and when i am i am in a good place, eating right, going out, fweeling good. i am only ever fat when i am depressed and out of control. so sunday will feel good as i can regain some of the lost control. i am so full of self doubt at the moment and have a lot to prove to myself. i really want to do this but part of me thinks i will fail. how can i get into the right frame of mind to start well?
my first goal is to post on here a week on sunday to tell you all i have had a good loss, but this seems to far away and so much like a pipe dream. can anyone help me emerge from the pit?
sorry for the length of the post - this forum is brilliant and i am a daily lurker!
however, reading everyone's posts is inspiring to me and there is a bigger part of me which is just so excited to be taking charge of myself. i try to motivate myself by saying that this time in a fortnight i might be more than half a stone lighter. i am determined to use my time away from food to re-educate myself. i have periods of being a normal weight and when i am i am in a good place, eating right, going out, fweeling good. i am only ever fat when i am depressed and out of control. so sunday will feel good as i can regain some of the lost control. i am so full of self doubt at the moment and have a lot to prove to myself. i really want to do this but part of me thinks i will fail. how can i get into the right frame of mind to start well?
my first goal is to post on here a week on sunday to tell you all i have had a good loss, but this seems to far away and so much like a pipe dream. can anyone help me emerge from the pit?
sorry for the length of the post - this forum is brilliant and i am a daily lurker!