Hi all
I reached my initial target, 11 stone, a couple of weeks back, and since then I've kind of lost the plot a bit!
I'm still (technically) on 790 but I'm finding it really difficult to stay on it. I have a good day, followed by an ok day, followed (more and more, recently) a late night where I'm just losing control and eating bread, dried fruit and even last night, a bag of chocolate fruit, which I've now looked up and found has taken up all my day's calories and shot me right out of ketosis. Yet again. So I guess I can't eat anything at all for the rest of the day. I'm ashamed to admit that recently after these incidents I've been making myself throw up, too. NOT good. After all this hard work and 9 and a half stone lost I'm appauled at the way I'm losing control.
There's a lot of work stress around at the moment, and I'm still struggling a bit to get my head around being slimmer and people's reactions to it - I am pleased of course but it also scares me, makes me feel hugely pressured somehow, and I'm really scared that my old self-sabotage mechanisms are kicking back in.
I haven't seen my CDC in 2 weeks and feel very ashamed to go back tomorrow and fess up and show her I've only lost 1lb, if that... she's always lovely but I feel I've let her and myself down.
I was doing so well!!!
Do I need to be moving up the plans now? (scared of that,t oo, of 'legitimate' carbs!) I'm 5'6, 10 stone 11. BMI 24.4 so maybe 790 isn't enough anymore, but having shown myself just how weak willed I am STILL, really scared that adding more food and variety at the moment will just make things worse, but I can't seem to do this anymore...!
Hey -ullllllp! Any words of wisdom, someone, please?
I reached my initial target, 11 stone, a couple of weeks back, and since then I've kind of lost the plot a bit!
I'm still (technically) on 790 but I'm finding it really difficult to stay on it. I have a good day, followed by an ok day, followed (more and more, recently) a late night where I'm just losing control and eating bread, dried fruit and even last night, a bag of chocolate fruit, which I've now looked up and found has taken up all my day's calories and shot me right out of ketosis. Yet again. So I guess I can't eat anything at all for the rest of the day. I'm ashamed to admit that recently after these incidents I've been making myself throw up, too. NOT good. After all this hard work and 9 and a half stone lost I'm appauled at the way I'm losing control.
There's a lot of work stress around at the moment, and I'm still struggling a bit to get my head around being slimmer and people's reactions to it - I am pleased of course but it also scares me, makes me feel hugely pressured somehow, and I'm really scared that my old self-sabotage mechanisms are kicking back in.
I haven't seen my CDC in 2 weeks and feel very ashamed to go back tomorrow and fess up and show her I've only lost 1lb, if that... she's always lovely but I feel I've let her and myself down.
I was doing so well!!!
Do I need to be moving up the plans now? (scared of that,t oo, of 'legitimate' carbs!) I'm 5'6, 10 stone 11. BMI 24.4 so maybe 790 isn't enough anymore, but having shown myself just how weak willed I am STILL, really scared that adding more food and variety at the moment will just make things worse, but I can't seem to do this anymore...!
Hey -ullllllp! Any words of wisdom, someone, please?