TBSx LL Journey...
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MagdaX
is Magdalicious
Oh honey I am the most indecisive person in the world!
Thank God I'm quite opposite in my professional life!
Thank you for your advice you posted on my page. You talk complete sense and truthfully I know you are right!
It's not the LL that's a problem. It's me!
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
I love CBT, is that weird! I get so much out of it, I wouldnt mind looking into it further.
You rock Mags, just read your post on your page, I think your LLC is panicking becuase she is seeing your pennies disappearing from her account, bl**dy cheek if you ask me especially when she has mood swings from week to week! I would definately consider another LLC, Vikki offered some sound advice to about RTM and upping the exercise.
Keep smiling beautiful xxxx
You rock Mags, just read your post on your page, I think your LLC is panicking becuase she is seeing your pennies disappearing from her account, bl**dy cheek if you ask me especially when she has mood swings from week to week! I would definately consider another LLC, Vikki offered some sound advice to about RTM and upping the exercise.
Keep smiling beautiful xxxx
Gembritney
Silver Member
IM SO SORRY i have only seen ur post about u feeling sad and unhappy! im glad you have taken some time off, to take care of yourself hun. and great news on ur WI!! wwell done girl!!! xxxx
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
You arent a drama queen, you had a wobble, lets face it who hasnt on here! xx
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
Thanks hunny, certainly picked the weather for some time off, its lovely! Feeling much better now xx
weebles
AKA...the WEEB
Good show on the WI last night.
Yes you picked a good time, weather wise, to take some time off.
The date with Wii came and went
Got out that darn balance ball. You know that over inflated balloon thing that people are suppose to sit on to find their centre of balance? Well, sat on mine, lifted the old leg of porks up and almost fell off. In the process of this, while making these moves to stay balanced I wrenched my neck and pulled a muscle in my back. WHO ever said these things were good for you? Obviously not meant for people over 40...lol
No pain...no gain has a new meaning today
Yes you picked a good time, weather wise, to take some time off.
The date with Wii came and went
Got out that darn balance ball. You know that over inflated balloon thing that people are suppose to sit on to find their centre of balance? Well, sat on mine, lifted the old leg of porks up and almost fell off. In the process of this, while making these moves to stay balanced I wrenched my neck and pulled a muscle in my back. WHO ever said these things were good for you? Obviously not meant for people over 40...lolNo pain...no gain has a new meaning today
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
Good show on the WI last night.
Yes you picked a good time, weather wise, to take some time off.
The date with Wii came and went
No pain...no gain has a new meaning today
Oooo sounds painful chick, I have a dodgy neck comes with falling off horses and car crashes lol x I go to see a chiropractor when it gets really bad, try findingnthe tension spot where it hurts and press it, you should feel it release that might help.
xx
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
Day 57
So went to WI last night and my face must speak louder than my words sometimes as the disappointment must have shown my LLC when it came to the 3lb loss again, I am not disappointed with the 3lb just the consistency of it. I like to plan and this isnt going to plan at the moment, it is going to take forever to get to goal at this rate and I desperately wanted to be full flow with RTM by the time I go on holiday in August.
My LLC was trying to give the right support, you are doing well, look at what you have lost so far, you are above the average for LLC, you will get to where you want to be when you want to be there. I couldnt help but challenge back on that one, I'm not mathematician but do the sums!! Her response was well you wont always lose 3lb I promise you. I am not down about it, just need to figure out which route to take now, LLC basically implied 10 stone might be a little low for me, to be fair she could be right. Hey ho, onwards and downwards as some of you will say. I have 2 options, shut up and put up or lower my weightloss goal. I am worried that if I change the goal will I feel like a failure, decisions, decisions, arghhhhh. I bought some mouse mix last night so I am looking forward to trying that today.
Yesterday I had the terrible shakes after I mowed the lawn, does anyone else suffer with the shakes? It not happened to me before, but was quite frightening as it would stop until I completely relaxed.
Right, excitement time! I ordered a couple of dresses off the internet in a size 12 to give me that focus and determination to get into them. They only bl**dy fit now!!!!!!!! I am buzzing let me tell you. I dont understand how I can get into that size, I remember being this wright many years ago and being in a 16, I dont know if its because I tried one thing in a certain size and it didnt fit so I opted for the bigger size without trying them on. I just dont get it at all. I am thinking 10 stone could be a size 10 for me another dilema as I wanted to be a size 12, I dont want to lose my curves or my boobs lol. I also bought a skirt in the same size, the skirt is actually loose on the waste, I must have a huge butt lol, the joys of being curvy. I am considering buying some magic underwear because I dont like my outline shape its not symetrical. I know I'm weird, but I am obsessed with symmetry in all ways lol. I actually love LL!!!!
Just got back from the horses, took their rugs off as its another beautiful day. I do love spending time at the stables, love the smell, see told you I was weird lol.
Nothing much to report on today foodwise.
Have a great day everyone and thanks again for the support yesterday, you lot rock xx
So went to WI last night and my face must speak louder than my words sometimes as the disappointment must have shown my LLC when it came to the 3lb loss again, I am not disappointed with the 3lb just the consistency of it. I like to plan and this isnt going to plan at the moment, it is going to take forever to get to goal at this rate and I desperately wanted to be full flow with RTM by the time I go on holiday in August.
My LLC was trying to give the right support, you are doing well, look at what you have lost so far, you are above the average for LLC, you will get to where you want to be when you want to be there. I couldnt help but challenge back on that one, I'm not mathematician but do the sums!! Her response was well you wont always lose 3lb I promise you. I am not down about it, just need to figure out which route to take now, LLC basically implied 10 stone might be a little low for me, to be fair she could be right. Hey ho, onwards and downwards as some of you will say. I have 2 options, shut up and put up or lower my weightloss goal. I am worried that if I change the goal will I feel like a failure, decisions, decisions, arghhhhh. I bought some mouse mix last night so I am looking forward to trying that today.
Yesterday I had the terrible shakes after I mowed the lawn, does anyone else suffer with the shakes? It not happened to me before, but was quite frightening as it would stop until I completely relaxed.
Right, excitement time! I ordered a couple of dresses off the internet in a size 12 to give me that focus and determination to get into them. They only bl**dy fit now!!!!!!!! I am buzzing let me tell you. I dont understand how I can get into that size, I remember being this wright many years ago and being in a 16, I dont know if its because I tried one thing in a certain size and it didnt fit so I opted for the bigger size without trying them on. I just dont get it at all. I am thinking 10 stone could be a size 10 for me another dilema as I wanted to be a size 12, I dont want to lose my curves or my boobs lol. I also bought a skirt in the same size, the skirt is actually loose on the waste, I must have a huge butt lol, the joys of being curvy. I am considering buying some magic underwear because I dont like my outline shape its not symetrical. I know I'm weird, but I am obsessed with symmetry in all ways lol. I actually love LL!!!!
Just got back from the horses, took their rugs off as its another beautiful day. I do love spending time at the stables, love the smell, see told you I was weird lol.
Nothing much to report on today foodwise.
Have a great day everyone and thanks again for the support yesterday, you lot rock xx
gracielou09
Silver Member
OMG, if your a size 12 now and you want to lose another 3 stone....your going to be smaller than a size 10 me thinks chickadee!!! How awesome you must've felt when you tried your svelte size 12 dresses on ....you go girl!!!
August is a fair few weeks away ..if you keep losing 3lbs I dont think we'll be able to see you by time Aug comes!!!
Have a great day hun
xxxxx
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
Hello Gracielou, its very surreal, I still feel huge but I know when I look in the mirror I am slightly smaller. I seem to have the devil/angel sitting on my shoulders, could be worse I could have have them tattoo'd on my bum and my back, oh no wait I have lmao! The thing is the angel tells me I look good in the clothes I am trying on but the devil says yeah but its a fluke there is no way you are a size 14 now let alone get into a 12! I have also grown a hate for my legs, thighs in particular. I think they are huge and ugly, I am hoping the exercise I have started doing will help me gorw to like them and slim them down a lot too. I'm not down on myself about it though because I am doing something about it.
Ha ha, there will still plenty of me left I am sure lol.
Hope you are doing well xx
Ha ha, there will still plenty of me left I am sure lol.
Hope you are doing well xx
gracielou09
Silver Member
Why are we so hard on ourselves eh! I bet to me and the other lovely ladies here we would look at you and say "you look awesome", but our own minds torment us - why is that!?
We seem to believe (cos the magazines tell us I think) that stick thin is the perfect body, but those pics are airbrushed and not a true reflection of women - it brainwashes us.
I love watching Gok, he says that whether stick thin or not the perfect body shape is an hourglass and shows us how to create that whether big or small, apple pear etc. I look at some of the ladies on there who are as big as me and I think they look awesome. So why cant i think that about myself?
I'm sure somewhere in my head I think I dont deserve to look good cos I've let myself go and put on weight.
It's true what they say, putting on weight is all to do with your psycological well being. I obviously need to sort my head out as well as my body lol.
I'm not sure where all that came from but I'm defo thinking about my demons more.
I'd love a tattoo ...maybe I'll do that when I get to goal
Hope your having a great day chick xxx
We seem to believe (cos the magazines tell us I think) that stick thin is the perfect body, but those pics are airbrushed and not a true reflection of women - it brainwashes us.
I love watching Gok, he says that whether stick thin or not the perfect body shape is an hourglass and shows us how to create that whether big or small, apple pear etc. I look at some of the ladies on there who are as big as me and I think they look awesome. So why cant i think that about myself?
I'm sure somewhere in my head I think I dont deserve to look good cos I've let myself go and put on weight.
It's true what they say, putting on weight is all to do with your psycological well being. I obviously need to sort my head out as well as my body lol.
I'm not sure where all that came from but I'm defo thinking about my demons more.
I'd love a tattoo ...maybe I'll do that when I get to goal
Hope your having a great day chick xxx
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
Why are we so hard on ourselves eh! I bet to me and the other lovely ladies here we would look at you and say "you look awesome", but our own minds torment us - why is that!?
We seem to believe (cos the magazines tell us I think) that stick thin is the perfect body, but those pics are airbrushed and not a true reflection of women - it brainwashes us.
I love watching Gok, he says that whether stick thin or not the perfect body shape is an hourglass and shows us how to create that whether big or small, apple pear etc. I look at some of the ladies on there who are as big as me and I think they look awesome. So why cant i think that about myself?
I'm sure somewhere in my head I think I dont deserve to look good cos I've let myself go and put on weight.
It's true what they say, putting on weight is all to do with your psycological well being. I obviously need to sort my head out as well as my body lol.
I'm not sure where all that came from but I'm defo thinking about my demons more.
I'd love a tattoo ...maybe I'll do that when I get to goal
Hope your having a great day chick xxx
I know we all beat ourselves up, time to stop I say!
Regardless of our shape or size we are all beautiful, both inside and out! Thats what I say!I would love to do a makeover on me, but I wouldnt let him touch my hair lol
CBT will help you sort your head outdont you worry about that.
I have 3 tattoo's but all hidden away each one represents something significant in my life. Great idea to get one when you get to goal I love that idea!
Have a wonderful day xx
weebles
AKA...the WEEB
And yet another similarity reveals itself
You following my life path? hahahaha
So true, we beat ourselves up over our sizes/shapes. Guess our self worth ain't up to snuff? When I was at my thinnest, I still felt fat and ugly - couldn't win. The b/f I had at the time (inbetween husbands...lol) said to me "just a few more pounds to lose and I would be perfect". Again, I weight 8 st and a few pebbles...there wasnt much more to lose (apart from him). So I ditched him. I will never forget those words though - so hurtful.
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
And yet another similarity reveals itself
You following my life path? hahahaha
So true, we beat ourselves up over our sizes/shapes. Guess our self worth ain't up to snuff? When I was at my thinnest, I still felt fat and ugly - couldn't win. The b/f I had at the time (inbetween husbands...lol) said to me "just a few more pounds to lose and I would be perfect". Again, I weight 8 st and a few pebbles...there wasnt much more to lose (apart from him). So I ditched him. I will never forget those words though - so hurtful.
Lol you got tattoo's too then
My self worth was rock bottom for many years, my ex still makes the comments like your in between husband boyfriend made to you. I just play up to him and tell him I love being fat! What a dumba**, hence an ex much to his dismay! Seriously and he wonders why!?!
xx
LadyT
Tough But Sexy X
Day 58
Another beautiful day, sun is shing but my mood is so random.
Got up at 5.30am this morning, why cant I sleep, just realised the dreams have stopped so thats a bonus!
Had a lovely banana shake for breakfast, mmmm! Then went off to take the horses rugs off so they can feel the sun on their backs. Bless them.
Had a few more deliveries, seriously I must stop spending online, its not like I actually need anything!
I am sooooooo bored today which has led to food thoughts. Goats cheese in particular (sorry for the mention of a type of food) but I do love it.
Had a letter today for an appointment to test for cardiovasular disease, er never heard of that one. Apparently at the grand old age of 40 you get a routine test for it. Just another reminder of getting older! No doubt my lack of an healthy diet and limited exercise will mean a lecture, thank goodness I dont smoke or the docs would have a full house for a whinge! lol
Had a cranberry bar for lunch, now is it me or do those things play havoc with your teeth. I really struggle to eat the bars they set my teeth on edge.
Nothing much else to report on today really. Hope you are all having a great day and the sun is shining in your areas too as that always makes people feel happier!
xx
Another beautiful day, sun is shing but my mood is so random.
Got up at 5.30am this morning, why cant I sleep, just realised the dreams have stopped so thats a bonus!
Had a lovely banana shake for breakfast, mmmm! Then went off to take the horses rugs off so they can feel the sun on their backs. Bless them.
Had a few more deliveries, seriously I must stop spending online, its not like I actually need anything!
I am sooooooo bored today which has led to food thoughts. Goats cheese in particular (sorry for the mention of a type of food) but I do love it.
Had a letter today for an appointment to test for cardiovasular disease, er never heard of that one. Apparently at the grand old age of 40 you get a routine test for it. Just another reminder of getting older! No doubt my lack of an healthy diet and limited exercise will mean a lecture, thank goodness I dont smoke or the docs would have a full house for a whinge! lol
Had a cranberry bar for lunch, now is it me or do those things play havoc with your teeth. I really struggle to eat the bars they set my teeth on edge.
Nothing much else to report on today really. Hope you are all having a great day and the sun is shining in your areas too as that always makes people feel happier!
xx
ReezieJay
Full Member
WOW Hunny Size 12!! I dont own any size 12's and too scared to shop for any incase im disapointed.
On the note of the Tattoos thats going to be one of my treats i want a really nice one my last one as im running out of places lol on my nice new flat stomach (if i ever get one) haha
I think in regards to not seeing the weight loss in ourselves as we see ourselves everyday we just not really notice the changes. THe same as when you donmt really notice as you get bigger you just suddenly realise your clothes are 'shrinking'. When i was feeling down on tuesday i looked at my photos my LLC took at the start and 4 weeks in and WOW what a difference. And ive got another 4 weeks worth of weight lost since then as well so would love to see the changes again. It was amazing. Would highly recomend looking at your photos!
On a possitive note i just want to say how lovely you are. I notice in a lot of your posts even if your having a bit of a crap day you always take the time to say your hoping everyone else is doing well. Such a lovely unshelfish person you are. Your are beautiful inside and out SEXY Lady T xx
On the note of the Tattoos thats going to be one of my treats i want a really nice one my last one as im running out of places lol on my nice new flat stomach (if i ever get one) haha
I think in regards to not seeing the weight loss in ourselves as we see ourselves everyday we just not really notice the changes. THe same as when you donmt really notice as you get bigger you just suddenly realise your clothes are 'shrinking'. When i was feeling down on tuesday i looked at my photos my LLC took at the start and 4 weeks in and WOW what a difference. And ive got another 4 weeks worth of weight lost since then as well so would love to see the changes again. It was amazing. Would highly recomend looking at your photos!
On a possitive note i just want to say how lovely you are. I notice in a lot of your posts even if your having a bit of a crap day you always take the time to say your hoping everyone else is doing well. Such a lovely unshelfish person you are. Your are beautiful inside and out SEXY Lady T
xx
