Hi gang,
Just found out some bad news at work - can't post it on here just in case as it's sensitive, but I may nt have a job in the new year due to things beyond my control
what a great Christmas present. I'm really sad cos I LOVE my job (and obviously need it to survive too!) and don't want to have to leave, so am keeping my fingers crossed and praying that I can stay.
I am doing ok, but realised today how much I used to eat for comfort in the past. Right now I could murder a huge pizza (sorry for food ref) but I'm not hungry... and thinking about it, it seems I WOULD be an emotional eater after all this time feeling sure I was just greedy. So there you go, I have learned something about myself today.
Despite the urges, I have not given in and have been 100% today. Not sure I'll be able to afford SS for more than another week, but will see how it goes. Am proud of myself for getting this far, and thanks to you guys for all your support and positivity - it keeps me going!
It's funny you guys are big-boned too. Although I'm only 5'6'', I have rugby-player shoulders and wide hips (am a classic hourglass) so am not sure at what weight I will need to stop dieting. Where I have abused my body through gaining weight quickly, my body tone now is not great, so I can't really tell what's fat and what's just bad muscle tone! Am working on the muscles tho!
If I can do another week of SS I am hopeful I will be near BMI25 and at least then I can focus on keeping it off over Christmas and maybe losing a little more/toning up during my 2 week break whilst eating 1200 stye.
Sorry for the rambley-rant, I'm feeling a bit stressed and need to let it out! xx