The shrinking violets official thread - Team 1

[jayne23]

thanks greeneyes, I've already done that and now I'm trying to catch up with all the stuff that I'm overdue with from work. You'll soon see that I'm a bit of a workaholic, this time of year is a bit frantic for me with lots of balls juggling in the air. Once I get back in control with CD then I tend to get back in control with my life / work / house / finances etc. Currently the house is a tip and the works been piling up but fortunately my 18 month plan to sort my finances (this is month 4) is on track, hence while I am always at work and doing extra shifts. The extra shifts allow me to pay extra on my loan etc and the work commitment and extra stuff I'm taking on will hopefully allow me to eventually earn more, killing two birds with one stone so to speak .

I'm not entirely mad, just trying to put myself in a better position to step back a bit when I'm 55 and enjoy all the things I like to do eg travel, hillwalking, reading, socialising

Good advice though about the manicure and bath they work for me everytime, as does cleaning out my wardrobe, clearing the crap out of the loft and going to the gym

 

[jen83]

Right girls you have all given me so much inspiration that i'm back on day one today. I can do this. I have got some jeans on today that i got bens nan to take in for me they were a perfect fit and now they r tight grrrrr that has given me the motivation i needed. Thanks for the support girls X x x

 

[jayne23]

had an awful day especially seeing as:needhug: I'm on a day off. had to go to a meeting and ended up crying all afternoon as it seems that something that really isn't my fault is being dumped in my lap. Couldn't stick up for myself cos I was blarting. Home now wishing that I'd never gone.

This is where I start to struggle as I tend to use food as a comfort. So I'm going back in the bath and then think I'll go to bed as I'm knackered and to watch tv. 10 years younger at 8, er at 9 and brothers and sisters at 10. Then working tomorrow so will go and face the music then

Does anyone know whether I could use an atkins bar on sunday while I'm hill walking as haven't got any bars and think a tetra may get squashed in my rucksack. Just wondering - trying to make sure that I'm not in a position where I decide to have a corned beef and pickle sarnie which is our usual walking food

J

 

[jayne23]

is there anyone there, I'm in the middle of a binge, have had biscuits, a salad wrap, chocolate bar, 3 slices ham and a dairylea triangle. Have done the damage now, am still in tears from today, felt empty and lonely and upset and trying to fix it with food which isn't going to work I know. Didn't get as far as the bath and bed and wish I had. Don't know whether i can stop. I'm just pathetic, I can't even stick to this for a week:wave_cry:

 

[Greeneyes11]

Hey Jayne, I am not surprised you are feeling so down, it must be awful to have people at work accuse you of things you haven't done, especially when you have tried so hard to impress them for your future. Dont let them also be the cause of falling of the wagon with your diet... go now and have the bath, then go to bed. Tomorrow is another day, be determined to restart 100% and then go into work with the same determination and show them that this mistake was not yours....

 

[jayne23]

thanks hon, i'll do my best, still can't even think about it without crying, in bed with the rescue remedy, feel so angry and let down. Its really important to me that I am seen to be fair and don't play the games that go on in any workplace and because I trusted that someone had taken advice before telling me what to do (as they said they had) its put me in the middle of the situation. Well you know what they say, tomorrow is another day.
I have been trawling the internet for another job, maybe something will come up
J

 

[night-owl]

:hug99: Oh Jayne I am so sorry not to have been on earlier, you sound in such a state. Don't worry a single bit about the mini binge, it could have been a lot worse, just put it behind you and try and stay positive. One more day to go and it's the weekend and you can get out on your walk. I too love walking and I am planning to get out on the South Downs on Sunday so I will be thinking of you. Take a flask of nice coffee for yourself and if you don't have any bars, do not worry about taking a tetra -- they are pretty sturdy and even if they get a little crushed I have never seen one burst.

You know it makes sense to just get right back on track in the morning. You have said yourself that once you have a good day on CD, you fee better about other things in your life, so just focus on taking it one day at time.

You poor thing, you just sound so distraught. Blimmin' work and office politics! It's outrageous that it can do this to someone. Where are you based? Would love to meet up for a walk. Hang in there!

 

[night-owl]

Right girls you have all given me so much inspiration that i'm back on day one today. I can do this. I have got some jeans on today that i got bens nan to take in for me they were a perfect fit and now they r tight grrrrr that has given me the motivation i needed. Thanks for the support girls X x x

Hi jen, great to hear you sounding so positive. You can do this! Never thought of getting jeans taken in. Hope you are feeling better now.

 

[night-owl]

when I get my bars next week, I will maybe save half of that for later in the evening. Right I dont like nuts of any kind (ok some of the human kind are ok) so what bars do you all recommend??

Bars are great! It is so great to have something to chew. If they slowed your weight loss in any way somehow I don't think CD would sell them so do not worry. My favourite is definitely the Malt Toffee. I've been getting 7 a week for yonks. Think I might be addicted lol! I often cut my bar in half and have half in the afternoon and half in the evening with a cup of tea or coffee.

 

[Greeneyes11]

Hope you are feeling better today Jayne, its amazing what a good night's sleep can do. Go in today and stick up for yourself and good luck.
I am not sure I like the soups very much so was thinking once I can have the bars I will have 1/2 a chocolate shake at lunchtime, 1/2 a bar once I get back from picking the children up from school, then the other 1/2 shake for tea and the other 1/2 a bar later on in the evening.... then I can enjoy it for most of the day.... lol

 

[jen83]

Jayne offering you ((((((((massive hugs))))))))))) sorry to hear your having such a bad time. I was doing ok yesterday until tea where i had salmon fishcakes and salad grrrrr. I'm struggling big time, but day one again today.
I too am a binge eater. I think I even have a disorder which I have never recognised before. I can really empathise with you Jayne because when things are bad I eat and eat to the point of feeling sick. It doesn't even matter what it is because I rarely even taste it. Then I feel terrible afterwards and starve myself its a cycle of self punishment. Things are hard at the minute as i'm still poorly and off work. I have my appointment with the cardiologist on monday, and work are already hasseling me about when i'll be back grrrrrr.
I think there is a world of difference between people who over eat and people who binge. I for one never actually enjoy the food that i'm binging on and i eat it really fast and often in secret. I think binging is much harder to break than over eating and i'm finding it a real struggle. Having said that it was only when I started reintroducing food that the binging started, wierd how I managed months of ss no problem.
I come on here most days Jayne if you ever want a chat? Do you have msn? I'm on there most evenings.
With regards to the atkins bars. I had these a few times for my lunch whilst I was at work when I was first on 810 and avoid them like the plague lol. They are gorgeous but really high in fat and left me wanting more surgery type foods.
Glad to hear everyone else is still going strong. I'm confident Jayne and myself will make it though. Especially with you lovely ladies for support. X x x

 

[night-owl]

hi Jen, do not beat yourself up over a couple of fishcakes lol! Are you sure you are well enough to be SSing? Should you not wait and see what your results say?

This is an amazing post. I'm a nibbler and an overeater. I have never had that feeling where I am not aware of what I am eating, but I know there are a lot of people on here who do this. I can see why SSing would help there as the 'no food rule' would probably turn that binge switch off, but you are right, you need to tackle this so that you can eat food again. I don't know what to advise, but there is a CDC/Diet counsellor on here called KD who might know where to start.

And coming on here when you feel it is going to happen. Have you got a diary on here? Do you think that would help? Writing it all down and getting things out of your system?

Or what about switching to SS+ now that you are nearer your goal? I have lost all my weight on SS+ and you would continue to lose on it I am sure. The reason I suggest this is that, I still see the protein and green veg meal on SS+ as diet food. I have turkey most nights, because I don't like chicken really, and I am so fed up with turkey I can tell you, but I eat it because it is just diet food, just like another CD pack. I have sort of switched off from it IYKWIM?

Hang in there, you have done brilliantly and you will get back into those jeans again, I promise you!

 

[Greeneyes11]

Today is obviously not a good day for a lot of us.... I am really really struggling, I have rung my daughter and husband in tears because I am so unhappy, I have managed a whole week on this diet but knowing I have another 3 months at least is depressing me so much, I am not even sure I can manage another day, well actually I will as I cannot imagine eating anything either, but I am sitting here crying because this diet is making me so unhappy. Before I started this I was on a low carb diet and thought I wasn't really losing weight, but last weekend I realised I must have been losing inches as I went down 2 sizes in jeans, and now I am thinking I have made a big mistake and should just go back on my low carb diet.... but I hate to fail and feel that giving up this after 1 week is failing big time, plus i would be stupid to trade in a fast weight loss for a smaller weightloss, but then I would probably be happier and I just dont know what to do...

 

[Angelmouse77]

Greeneyes I felt exactly the same untill about day 10 my first wi I lost 7lbs but didnt even really smile i was so miserable, I was miserable because the only way I have ever cheered myself up is through food and I couldnt have it. All I can say is my experience at around day 11 something clicked I felt so much better knowing I am in control that food no longer controlls me, sure this diet is hard but the results are fast for me wi1 -7, wi2 -6, wi3 -3 wi4 -5 wi6 -5. My cdc always says to me there is no point cheating its too expensive just get your head down crack on with it for a few months its NOT forever. I am slowly learning my problems are not food related so food cant solve them.

Just give it a while see if you feel different in a week xx

 

[Greeneyes11]

Thank you, I will keep going and see how I feel on day 10, as I have all the meals here anyway, the problem is I am still starving hungry all the time and everyone comments on how loud my tummy rumbles...

 

[night-owl]

hi Linda, sorry to hear you are miserable. I have never sole sourced so I really can't imagine how tough it is. All I can say is it does get easier.Just focus on getting through the day, don't think of the long term. If you can get to day 10 I am sure you will feel differently about it. The weight will come off so fast. Keep things in perspective, you are using a few weeks to get to the weight you want to me. It is no time at all in the grand scale of things.

Drinking water throughout the day helps fill you up and I always find that a hot drink (tea or coffee) is great for getting rid of hunger pangs even faster. Keeping busy is also good. Find little things to do to fill the time or have a hot bath. I remember one diet counsellor telling me to time it when it is really bad and see that the hunger pangs do pass in minutes not hours.

Most of all hang in there.

 

[Greeneyes11]

Have spoken to several people and am through the crisis I hope. I have swapped some of my soups for more shakes as I like them better, and my friend also on the cd pointed out to me that did I fancy the food I wanted to eat, or did I want to eat it because I was hungry. Seeing as hubby had said on the phone that maybe I should add a small meal to my diet and I said that the meals I was allowed to have were boring, I am assuming that it is not hunger that is depressing me, but eating what I fancy. So now I have come to terms with that, I am going to move on and look to Wednesday as my milestone, and once I get there, will take a few more days at a time. I know I want to lose this weight quickly and I know this is the diet to do it on, just hoping things do get easier. Thanks for your reply, everyone has helped me greatly... I never thought I would be as miserable as I was this morning, I thought I would sail through this.

 

[night-owl]

Gosh Linda, well done, you really are going to do this. There is one thing you will learn on this diet and that is the difference between head hunger and real hunger. I am convinced that this will stay with us for life. I don't think I will ever get the same panic I used to get at the thought of missing a meal. I would just have a coffee and drink water and get on with my life now. It is no big deal.

We need to have a cut off point for results really so that I know when to tot up the numbers and post on the the Challenge thread. I think 6pm Saturday is fair enough as I don't think anyone gets weighed on a Sunday morning? What do you guys think?

 

[Greeneyes11]

Thats fine for weigh in, what information do you need from me??

 

[night-owl]

Think I've managed to find all I need from you Linda -- your 4lbs loss leaves you at 13 stone 5lbs (185lbs), is that right?

Here's what I have in terms of results, correct me if I am wrong:
Gem -- -12lbs (now 216 lbs) (loss 5.2%) Our Slimmer of the Week arty0011::angel09:
Theresa -- -5lbs (now 174 lbs) (loss 2.7%)
Jayne -- -4lbs (now 185 lbs) (loss 2.1%)
Linda -- -4lbs (now 187 lbs) (loss 2.0%)
Me -- -1lb (now 154 lbs) (loss 0.64%)

With 5 results the team total loss is: 2.76%

Hopefully hear from Dana soon. If she posts by 6pm tomorrow I will add her in but gonna post this result on the team challenge thread as it is soooo GOOD!