roxy babes you really shouldnt do that to your body hun and you have to get out of this cycle of guilt that youve got, its only you, beating yourself up and dont be mislead hun, i think i can speak to most on here when i see sometimes it is unbearble but because this diet is FOR YOU, you have to reason with yourself in your head. It is hard which is why we have this site as we know other people are going through the same thing and understand where we are coming from but u mustnt get that guilty with yourself that your gonna make yourself sick, your health will go cos when your sick you dont just bring the food up you bring some good stuff up that your body stores and needs. But thats an awful thing to do to yourself and im soo sorry you got yourself into such a place you had to do it. If you felt soo bad about eating it in the first place, remember that feeling, then use it when u want to eat. Paul Mckenna does a technique where he asks you to remember some good things then pinch your thumb and first finger on your right hand together whilst your remembering it, keep doing this as you visualise good things in your life, good feelings, then do the same with your left hand and imagine your fav food but covered in pubic hair and lard until you gag. What happens is you retrain your brain waves to cut the connection to food (cheats) are good to make them bad but also gives you something to use when you want to cheat which is the right hand pinching as it creates a 'good feeling' in your brain. It does work, he uses it for phobias, smoking, diets, maybe you should go get one of his books but whatever you do, youve got to look after yourself and your half way there already by making this decision to get healthier and happier by doing this diet, now your mind has to follow suit, so if you get in that situation again, just shout in your head no and try the techniques, or even better message me and il give you my moby, i work from home so can take calls anytime and wouldnt mind in the slightest if you ring when you desperately want to eat then il do my best to talk you out of it or as a last resort SHOUT AT YOU, we are all here for you hun, we are all going through it, some find it easier than others and this is what this site is for, on a really good note, keep going and you will find those feeling will subside so its not going to be forever, usually just the first week, it really does get easier, trust me jxxx