OK, so i am on here trying ti distract myself.... it's tea time and i'm having to cook for my 4 children, why does food smell so nice when you know u can't have any, i don't even think i am hungry, but the thought of it is in my head now. So the plan is, give kids their tea, then wash up then out for a walk in the rain to allow myself time to think and to remind myself of why i am doing this. I'm coming to the end of day three and know that things will start to get better soon, just need to stick with it!!!