milkybar
Full Member
hello all,
i just need to vent if im honest
i started cd at the begining of the year and was 18st11
i got down to 17.8 before i gave up and started ww.
on ww i got to about 17.5 then just up and down each week never really loosing.
now im 17.11 after giving that up and feel so fat and gross that i cant bear to look at myself in the mirror.
yesterday i split my trousers which has put me in a foul mood!
i feel in the right frame of mind for cd now as i never want to eat again, however with xmas being on sunday i dont think this is very feesable and i dont want to waste my money on cd for 2 days then blow it on sunday !!!
but iv definatley decided i cannot continue like this is making me miserable so i think january 4th i return to work and back into a routine will be my first day back with CD.
sorry for the rant i think i just needed to get that oout and didnt want to say it to my friends or family !!!
i just need to vent if im honest
i started cd at the begining of the year and was 18st11
i got down to 17.8 before i gave up and started ww.
on ww i got to about 17.5 then just up and down each week never really loosing.
now im 17.11 after giving that up and feel so fat and gross that i cant bear to look at myself in the mirror.
yesterday i split my trousers which has put me in a foul mood!
i feel in the right frame of mind for cd now as i never want to eat again, however with xmas being on sunday i dont think this is very feesable and i dont want to waste my money on cd for 2 days then blow it on sunday !!!
but iv definatley decided i cannot continue like this is making me miserable so i think january 4th i return to work and back into a routine will be my first day back with CD.
sorry for the rant i think i just needed to get that oout and didnt want to say it to my friends or family !!!