Hi Lovett,
I'm glad you didn't delete your posts either, an I agree with you, overthinking on this diet can have a negative impact on progressing with the plan. I've had about 3 or 4 false starts from earlier this year when recommended to me by my cousin. Something clicks and you just get on with it.
I'm like you. I am on the plan I know it's going to work and I'm at the same time focusing what I'll do to manage once I reach goal.
I was good before my weight gain so I know I have to remember enforce and condition myself to only look at clean eating. Once at goal, I'll have to do what I really hate and exercise regularly to keep my body strong and healthy.
I know now that I've started I want to be able
To wear my clothes, and chuck out all the ones I've had to by in the last couple of years.
I'm not going to think about any medical issues I have eg under active thyroid etc. I just have to work a little longer. Just like others may have to work harder at things that I'm able to do a little easier.
The real true reason to staying slim. Is generally eating small amounts per day, if your body is in ketosis then anyone can manage on less calories like we're doing now.
Of course we can say? Will just have that roll, that Pizza those chips. I am conditioning myself that those foods are the enemy.
I have seriously indulged myself in the last 2 years. I could afford to as I wasn't over weight. I did have control of my eating. I did look at anything that I would describes as empty calories as would not passing my lips.
Then I had a life challenge. I've had many of those and just got on with life as I didn't let them affect me, but this particular one threw me where I'm still suffering the fallout.
So I thought I've always been good, I'm going to eat whatever rubbish I want. So I did. I ate, and drank, and ate, and drank I didn't stop. I thought I've been so disciplined I'm going to let go. I carried on in my dispair to try and forget about what was going on around me...
I ate until I'd gained a whopping 6 stones. I kinda haphazardly made attempts to lose some pounds, but I didn't care, I was more than happy to get bigger and bigger. Also possibly body blindness. I was just eat eat eat. Gawd everything just started to taste of cardboard.
I still have these challenging things to contend with. Can't go into detail suffice a million legal reasons why I can't.
So here I am now 31 kg over weight as my goal too is 60kg although 58 or 59 preferable.
So I know like you how easy it can be to use food as a crutch. But when you work hard, losing weight and every pound has been like your battling a war. If I celebrate each and every pound that I lose, I will respect the enormous effort which went into losing that pound. If I don't have respect for it, that's when I could fall of the wagon and be a glutton and regain the weight.
If I can't enjoy the sheer hard work, commitment, tear everything I've gone through to lose this weight. I won't respect moving forward in a healthy way. How gorging on food could be the end result.
Once I'm done to my goal. I will have to retrain myself to a little derivation is not a bad thing. I can eat, but self control needs to kick in. If I want something then a mouthful or two of something is enough.
I'd go for dinner with friends, say 4 of us, meals these days are so big, so easily order 2 starters to share and 2 main meals to share between 4, order size plates and you're enjoying company and not over eating, clean eating following the 5:2 or 4:3 plan.
Bfn woke up so dozing off to sleep
xxx