What made you do it
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MandyLupton
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I suffered with crippling panic attacks brought on by drinking far too much, I also was eating so many take-aways each week and generally feeling a prisoner in my own home due to my size that I had to do something about it as I would be dead by the time I was 50.
I haven't looked back since....I've lost 7stone 10.5lbs ( the first 2.5 stone with lowcarbing and lipotrim)
I haven't looked back since....I've lost 7stone 10.5lbs ( the first 2.5 stone with lowcarbing and lipotrim)
hels123smiles
Silver Member
OMG!!!! Your amazing! Well done! That is some great weight loss!
lucylastic
Silver Member
Realising:
1. My stomach appeared to be masquerading as an apron, and pointing more southerly by the day
2. I was drinking enough wine to qualify as a binge-drinker at least 3 times a week (quite often more)
3. The shops hadn't started making their sizes smaller, it was me getting bigger
4. I wasn't really trying to save energy by turning the lights off as soon as we got into bed....
5. I was in a vicious circle - I felt too fat to go swimming any more, therefore I wasn't burning off any calories
6. There was no way I wanted to spend a summer covering up rolls of lard - let me at those skimpy dresses and little tops and tight jeans!
And so far? It's going great - I find it truly comforting and feel "safe" now I'm abstaining from food and alcohol - I'm not able to trust myself around it - yet.
1. My stomach appeared to be masquerading as an apron, and pointing more southerly by the day
2. I was drinking enough wine to qualify as a binge-drinker at least 3 times a week (quite often more)
3. The shops hadn't started making their sizes smaller, it was me getting bigger
4. I wasn't really trying to save energy by turning the lights off as soon as we got into bed....
5. I was in a vicious circle - I felt too fat to go swimming any more, therefore I wasn't burning off any calories
6. There was no way I wanted to spend a summer covering up rolls of lard - let me at those skimpy dresses and little tops and tight jeans!
And so far? It's going great - I find it truly comforting and feel "safe" now I'm abstaining from food and alcohol - I'm not able to trust myself around it - yet.
hels123smiles
Silver Member
This is how I feel, I couldnt have a green and white meal, I wouldnt trust myself yet!
Sean(JSF)
Making it all add up
No one reason really. I've been conscious of increasing weight every year for the past 20 years, and for the past 10-15 of those I've consciously ignored it.
I think last year I got fed up with feeling lethargic and joined the gym - went 2-3 times every week up to Christmas and finished the year 8lbs heavier than I started it!!! So at least I KNOW cutting back and exercise aren't the answer for me (or weren't pre LL). I knew a number of people who had all lost 3st + on LL and decided to give it a go.
HOWEVER, truthfully, I was concerned that my BP was in the HIGH end of normal; I am paying a 50%+ premium on health insurance, critical illness cover etc due to my size; and I could only buy clothes in 'larger' shops, or have a choice of only one pair of trousers etc as that's all that was ever in the high street - Can you believe I actually told myself that there were so many larger men out there that the big sizes sold first??
Also, I present for businesses around the UK, and increasingly disliked the photo's being used of me for promotional purposes. Oh yes - those 2 photos of me on holiday (see album) are just hideous - and I actually felt really good when they were both taken...
I think last year I got fed up with feeling lethargic and joined the gym - went 2-3 times every week up to Christmas and finished the year 8lbs heavier than I started it!!! So at least I KNOW cutting back and exercise aren't the answer for me (or weren't pre LL). I knew a number of people who had all lost 3st + on LL and decided to give it a go.
HOWEVER, truthfully, I was concerned that my BP was in the HIGH end of normal; I am paying a 50%+ premium on health insurance, critical illness cover etc due to my size; and I could only buy clothes in 'larger' shops, or have a choice of only one pair of trousers etc as that's all that was ever in the high street - Can you believe I actually told myself that there were so many larger men out there that the big sizes sold first??
Also, I present for businesses around the UK, and increasingly disliked the photo's being used of me for promotional purposes. Oh yes - those 2 photos of me on holiday (see album) are just hideous - and I actually felt really good when they were both taken...
Blonde Logic
Yes. You can.
Sean(JSF) said:
I kow what you mean...the pic in myu signature now, in my purple outfit - that was my "I'm feeling skinny" outfit!!!
God, are we the masters of denial or what!!!
I started LL because I was sick of the way people treated me, my husband is a fitness instructor and when ever anybody well not anybody just females met me for the first time I would get comments like oh your his wife your not what I expected do you not attend any of his classes? I would cry over the way I looked and then eat. I became very moody and had such low self esteem that when one of his clients turned into a bunny boiling stalker I fell apart I was convinced he would leave me for her. I spent a long time on antidepressants and medication to control panic attacks. I woke up one day and thought this is it, sort yourself out. I rang the LLC on the Friday and started on the Saturday (valentines day) That seems like a lifetime ago but in the last five weeks I have lost 2 stone, my confidence is coming back, and my husband says he's not seen me this happy for over a year. My kids seem to laugh a lot more and I am determined to see this through to the end.
lucylastic
Silver Member
I was really pleased to read that, as one thing that has been really worrying me, that I haven't felt able to tell anyone - until now! - is that I used to look in the mirror and think I actually looked pretty good. That really worries me - I don't know if it means I have a huge ego, or I consciously refuse(d) to admit the truth. Either way, I'm not proud of itI kow what you mean...the pic in myu signature now, in my purple outfit - that was my "I'm feeling skinny" outfit!!!
God, are we the masters of denial or what!!!
Blonde Logic
Yes. You can.
I was really pleased to read that, as one thing that has been really worrying me, that I haven't felt able to tell anyone - until now! - is that I used to look in the mirror and think I actually looked pretty good. That really worries me - I don't know if it means I have a huge ego, or I consciously refuse(d) to admit the truth. Either way, I'm not proud of it
No love, I think its called self-preservation! When I look back on old photos now, I am in wonder how my husband ever found me attractive in the first place. Speaks highly of his character I think though, as he loved me either way - he never knew me slim, so chose me fat. Bless him.
I now believe my psyche would not allow me to see me as I truly was, in a mirror....or I might never have let the house. But seeing photos now - its a real eye-opener, andjust reniforces the importance of continuing to maintain.
WHich I can happily announce, I am now weighing myself once a week on MOndays, and for the past months I have been spot on the same number. I go up and down thru the week, but always come out the same. Its a miracle!
(Or my scales are stuck!!!
:giggleDon;t ever feel ashamed. ANd feel greatly proud of yourself for what yo are doing now. You have taken control and made a conscious decision to change your life.....and your life WILL change.
xx
lucylastic
Silver Member
Don;t ever feel ashamed. ANd feel greatly proud of yourself for what yo are doing now. You have taken control and made a conscious decision to change your life.....and your life WILL change.
xx
Thanks BL - yet again your words are wise, motivational and incredibly supportive. I know its been said before, and I know life as an LLC may not be right for you right now, but I really think you should consider utilising your very natural counselling / people skills in some way - people like you are needed in all sorts of areas of business, for example, as well as the more traditional counselling-type roles
