So I lost 3.5 stone on LL/CD - brilliant! But then I started eating again and binged for the whole of December and (unsuprisingly) put back on about a stone. So I started WW as I couldn't face abstinence again. Less than 1 week into WW and I have had another HUGE binge last night.
Been up all night being sick and generally feeling absolutely disgusting and really quite ill, I have no doubt that it is the binge that has made me feel this way.
What on earth am I doing to my body? It's like my stomach is now saying ENOUGH OF THIS! Why do I do it, I am utterly disgusting?
Hi Sarah,
I see from your weight loss tracker that you have only 8lbs. to go to goal weight.
This is only my own personal opinion for what it is worth...but I feel your self sabotaging as you are not ready to be at goal.
May sound very weird but I went through a bit of this last year and on and off since.
I am sure it has to do with accepting yourself.
Claiming your achievements and being ready to move on to the next step.
We put so much energy into losing the weight and are focused on it, even putting our lives on hold...now as the time draws near it can be a bit scary.
But losing the weight is only the first step...adapting to regular eating like what you are doing now is the next...
As Beverly and Nic have both said your not alone.
Being aware of what is going on in your head and looking at what might of triggered the binge is a step into understanding.
As comfort eaters we tend to eat down our emotions, it is a form of denial.
Get a blank piece of paper and write down how you are feeling, don't think too much, just begin to write, you will be surprised what might come out.
There is pros and cons to ever thing we do in life.
The pros to losing weight is that we are healthier, fitter and look much better and can wear nicer clothes and feel good about ourselves.
The cons are the goal posts move and the critical eye from OTHERS tend to shift onto something else that they may or may not find fault about us. We get use to all the old faults and warts about us and somehow it is a bit of a shock when we are faced with a whole new set of things to deal with...
Probably why so many throw in the towel and crawl back into the shell.
Every change in life takes courage.
Give yourself time to get use to WW and don't be so hard on yourself. It is not what you do on a one off that puts the weight on, it is what you do all the time.
New ways of thinking and doing take time and repetition of the new healthier ways of living and eating take time to establish themselves and eventually they will become second nature and old habits will become a thing of the past.
But it does take awareness and being willing to move on and not get stuck.
This is also a post to myself as I write this.
Love Mini xxx