Lexy1972
Full Member
Hi all, I thought I would tell my story having read some really honest, open and emotional threads today. Firstly I run my own business in recruitment, I had a brilliant first 2 years, one employee and we were doing great. Then the recession hit, she left and I moved out of the office to work from home. Business has got gradually worse and worse and now I have no business or money coming in, haven't had for 3 months! I was in a 3 year relationship with a man 10 years younger than me who was the love of my life, we lived together, had a puppy and were discussing marriage and kids (as I am almost 37) and life was good on that front, then about a month ago he said he still loved me but wasn't sure how he felt about us. The long and short of it is that about 2 and a half weeks ago we split up as he said he just wasn't ready to commit and wanted to be fair to me, but who knew what might happen in the future as we still loved each other. I was doing OK, then yesterday he admitted he has started seeing someone else . My world just shattered and I felt so hurt, betrayed and angry. I would be out having fun and keeping busy so I didn't have time to think about it BUT I have put on 3 stone since we've been together and I feel so fat, un-attractive, rejected etc that I started CD again.
I have lost just over a stone in 2 and a half weeks and although I'm not finding it hard to stick to the diet at the moment I am so bored. I don't want to go out as we live in a v.small town and drink in the same 2 pubs and the thought of seeing him with someone else makes me feel sick. Because my work is dead, apart from a daily walk with my dog I just end up sitting round the house all day and evening. I don't want to socialise as I don't want to be tempted and I don't want to go out looking and feeling like I do at the moment :cry:
I just want the next 2 months done, I want to have lost the weight I put on and I want to start going out again and get my life back on track!!!! 2 months at the moment feels like a lifetime and I dread going to bed every night knowing I have to wake up tomorrow to another day of sadness and boredom.
Thanks for listening, my friends have all been amzing but sometimes it's easier talking to people that don't know you xxx
I have lost just over a stone in 2 and a half weeks and although I'm not finding it hard to stick to the diet at the moment I am so bored. I don't want to go out as we live in a v.small town and drink in the same 2 pubs and the thought of seeing him with someone else makes me feel sick. Because my work is dead, apart from a daily walk with my dog I just end up sitting round the house all day and evening. I don't want to socialise as I don't want to be tempted and I don't want to go out looking and feeling like I do at the moment :cry:
I just want the next 2 months done, I want to have lost the weight I put on and I want to start going out again and get my life back on track!!!! 2 months at the moment feels like a lifetime and I dread going to bed every night knowing I have to wake up tomorrow to another day of sadness and boredom.
Thanks for listening, my friends have all been amzing but sometimes it's easier talking to people that don't know you xxx