Hellooooooo! I have finally done it! Committed to the Cambridge diet, and I am really excited/nervous to start. Decided to start my own little diary on here to help me keep track of how I'm feeling etc, as blogging is something that has helped me in the past. I will warn you now - I like to blog a lot! On another website I blogged so much, but just didn't feel supported. I have been looking over this website for a while now and everyone seems so lovely, so wanted to be here. I'm sorry if I tend to whine, moan, express ridiculous opinions/theories, laugh, cry, be boring.. it's just me and I love using the anonymous internet to help deal with my issues! I'll start with just explaining a little bit about me. My story: I, like others, have been overweight all my life. For as long as I can remember. Chubby kid, always the biggest at school. In high school I was always the biggest out of my group of friends; but it was OK, I was the loud, funny, friend-to-everyone-but-loved-by-noone kind of girl. That continued into college, where I started to drink most weekends as well as indulging in the alcohol-induced kebab shop munchies. I left home and went to university in Scotland around 400 miles away from home, which was both hard and exciting at the same time. I missed home a lot, and would spend nights binging on food to make myself feel better. The nights where I wasn't binging, I was out drinking with friends (again, slim, beautiful friends). I was the novelty english person, everyone knew me and knew what I was like - always up for a laugh, always up for a night out. Hangover days would be spent literally lying in bed without moving, apart from to answer the door to the pizza guy. I met my boyfriend whilst at Uni, whom I am still deeply in love with. I lost a bit of weight when I first got with him, but over the course of 2 years have become comfortable. He loves me for who I am, but I know deep down he would love me to have a figure like the glamour models. What guy wouldn't?! Or if not a model, just a bit slimmer so that when we cuddle my belly doesn't get in the way. I traveled europe last year for about 5 months and put a lot of weight on there - about a stone. The food was amazing! But since coming back in October I have been attempting to loose that weight.. obviously unsuccessfully. I have tried loads of diets: starving myself, calorie counting, slimming world, Dukan and everything in between. But have always failed and ended up putting the weight and more back on. Why I want to start Cambridge: I need this. I have realised that living on my own, it's too hard for me to be healthy and loose weight when I haven't got the support from my family. I also need quick results. I have realised that loosing 1lb per week is very off-putting for me and that I need to see good results in the first few weeks to make me realised that this is all worth it. I also am going on holiday in around 7 weeks and neeeeeed to lose about a stone (at least) by then. Otherwise I know I will hate myself, not want to join in on the holiday. I have lots of social events around that time and would love to be in something slinky that I feel good in. I also want to be sexy for my boyfriend! He is the most amazing person I have ever met, and I want him to be proud of me: I want him to show me off, and for that sexual chemistry to be there again. I don't want to feel comfortable, I want it to be exciting!! I also love the idea that this diet is so prescriptive - it tells me what to do, when to do it (kind of) and I am guaranteed results if I stick to this. My plan/goals: So, the plan is to stick to Step 1 Sole Source for the upcoming few weeks. I know it's going to be difficult, and I apologise in advance for the repeated blogging but I need something to keep me occupied haha! I have made a list of goals that will hopefully get crossed off within the next few weeks! Stick to plan for 1 week Stick to plan for 1 month Get to 11stone Get to 10.7 Get to 10 Get to 9.7 - ultimate goal Size 10 clothes Sorry for the rambling, long start. But I should really put this apology in the beginning as I imagine people have got bored and left by now! But I am just excited and very nervous to start tomorrow. My start weight is 11.11, and I have all my measurements down. My consultant is really nice, so will be seeing her next Monday morning. Fingers crossed! Will write tomorrow.