Written in 2002

[kandy]

Hi i wrote this poem in 2002 i was 2 stone heavier thn my current weight .........


THE BLIMP

The only time i feel the guilt
Or loathe the way my body's built
Is on occasions very rare
I leave the comfort of my chair

To venture out among the crowds
Wearing clothes that resemble shrouds
Waddling around, breathing in
Desperately wishing i was thin

I promise myself 'i will lose this weight'
So next time i'll be looking great
So a week goes by i feel an urge
Its comes again an eating splurge

Another week the diets done
i forget all about having fun
i dream of takeaway all i can eat
i can see my stomach but not my feet

So embarrased i've become
that people laugh at my big fat bum
baggy trousers tent like shirts
don't stop those jibes, they really hurt

Wish me luck it's really tough
but i am sick of looking and feeling rough
I am out of breath i feel unfit
All this food makes me feel like sh*t

So now the time is finally here
to lay off sweets and crisps and beer
to slim it down lose that weight
till i am looking and feeling great .

I found this today clearing out some old letters made me realise that i have been a blimp for too long now . x

 

[Ajax]

That is a fantastic poem, straight from the heart! well done, get it published!

 

[Barb]

Love it - says it all!

 

[Mini]

Julie that is so fantastic, brilliant, well done!!!

Love Mini xxx

 

[Diva]

I read this earlier on today and found it so touching and honest that I had to come back to read it again....It's brilliant Julie!

 

[Cheb]

Words from the heart that ring true with so many of us here.

Brilliant wordmanship, think it would be published.

 

[kandy]

Thank you for your kind comments, i must admit reading it after all this time really hit a raw nerve with me !!!

I thought my lack of self confidence was a recent thing but now i realise its always been there xxx

 

[Gen]

Hiya Julie

What a lovely poem, really is so true for probably all of us on here!

thanks for posting it!!

love

Gen xx

 

[chicken on a mission]

I love the poem as it really spoke to me but what really hits home is your comments about the period of time you have felt like this

 

[kandy]

Thanks Gen and COAM,
I always seem to write poetry when i am feeling down i am a wallower my mum says lol!

I am amazed that so many of you identify with this poem i hope it hasn't bought anyone down !
Like it did me lol !

Thanks for all your lovely comments much appreciated xxx

 

[Bellybee]

Hi,

What a truly truly fantastic poem. I too identify with it and can totally empathise. I also wrote poetry quite a bit when i was down and a teenager, those poems are horrendous if I read them back but I am not sure whether i kept them.

 

[bubbles]

that is a great poem and a very good description of how it feels! you should get it published xx

 

[kandy]

thank you lisa and thank you bubbles for bringing it back to the front page having a bad time at the moment and it reminded me how much i want to change things xxx