Hello there, I'm unhappy with my life in a lot of areas, loads of them connected to my weight (for example, don't like going out because I don't like how I look / don't like having friends round because the house is a mess). I truly am stuck in a rut and spend a lot of time eating through boredom and not cleaning up because it's boring! I also don't bother with my appearance either because I think 'what the point, you don't go anywhere, and you're invisible to other people most of the time, so why bother'. I went to watch Take That yesterday with one of my oldest friends, and I was pouring out my heart to her (I haven't ever told anyone the above) and she just said: "You can only dig yourself out of your rut. If you don't think you are worth it, no one else will. I know it feels like a big effort, but it isn't, you just need to make that first step". So - I've re-joined the weight loss resources website as I think Calorie Counting IS for me, and I've bought a starter pack of Alli just to give me a kick start. I'm hoping the thought of 'side effects' will give me the psychological boost not to cave into scoffing rubbish when bored. I'm not taking any today though as the Pharmacist advised a low fat diet for a couple of days prior to taking them. WLR has given me a goal date of 19th Feb next year, which is 236 days, i'll be interested to see if I can last that long. I've been off work today so have had some nice 'me time' without the kids. So - here's my changing habits diary. Hope you enjoy the read and join me for the ride. Starting weight: 13st 13lbs. Ideal weight: 10st 5lbs.