crunchyfrog
Eyes on the Prize!!
Just need to vent some shameful frustration!!
I'm finding it such a struggle to keep going. I am due to keep to it for another two weeks. I don't know what it is but those two weeks feel like an eternity away. I've lost so much so far and every day seems to be harder and harder.
I've had the bath, long walk, water, tried everything to keep my mind occupied, rewarding with non food related things but oh goodness is it hard to keep motivated.
I've got the best goal to aim for, my wedding on 16th October and yet I still find ways to sabotage my success. Go figure eh!
I have the most beautiful dress and go for another fitting in the begining of September so why is it I still manage to have this self destructive behaviour?
Last night I had a huge bowl of thai noodles and curry. I was watching my OH slurp up his delicious Thai take away and all the smells and sounds of him eating were literally driving me mad. So I had a breakfast bowl filled with pad thai and rice.
It was the worst kind of thing to have so packed full of carbs. So what did I do to compensate? I've never said this to anyone and I've done it a few times before in the past and lately it seems at least twice a week. It's commonly called purging. God I cant believe I've just said that. But yes I just had to rid myself of what I had just consumed. I could not see any other way to remedy the situation. I feel I'm just losing a grip. I've got two weeks left of this. Why do I feel the need to do this? Arrgh it's so frustrating. :ashamed0005::sigh2:
I'm finding it such a struggle to keep going. I am due to keep to it for another two weeks. I don't know what it is but those two weeks feel like an eternity away. I've lost so much so far and every day seems to be harder and harder.
I've had the bath, long walk, water, tried everything to keep my mind occupied, rewarding with non food related things but oh goodness is it hard to keep motivated.
I've got the best goal to aim for, my wedding on 16th October and yet I still find ways to sabotage my success. Go figure eh!
I have the most beautiful dress and go for another fitting in the begining of September so why is it I still manage to have this self destructive behaviour?
Last night I had a huge bowl of thai noodles and curry. I was watching my OH slurp up his delicious Thai take away and all the smells and sounds of him eating were literally driving me mad. So I had a breakfast bowl filled with pad thai and rice.
It was the worst kind of thing to have so packed full of carbs. So what did I do to compensate? I've never said this to anyone and I've done it a few times before in the past and lately it seems at least twice a week. It's commonly called purging. God I cant believe I've just said that. But yes I just had to rid myself of what I had just consumed. I could not see any other way to remedy the situation. I feel I'm just losing a grip. I've got two weeks left of this. Why do I feel the need to do this? Arrgh it's so frustrating. :ashamed0005::sigh2:
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