Well hellooo everyone, long time no see!
Thought I'd write and say hello as I've not been around much due to getting into the swing of motherhood and also in the process of trying to move house.
It's so hard to believe that just over 3 weeks ago I gave birth to my son but I'm loving being a mummy. He's just lovely, even when he is screaming his head off with impatience when he's hungry and we're sorting his bottle out and then when I get covered in vomit lol!
He's changing everyday, the differences I can see in 3 weeks are just astonishing so for any first time mummies who are expecting, if I could offer any pearls of wisdom so to speak, enjoy every second when they're born and take tons of pictures because the differences you'll notice in 3 weeks, even 1 week are just amazing and believe me you'll want to capture every moment.
Ethan is solely bottle fed now as I struggled a bit with breastfeeding, I wasn't producing enough for him. Last week I felt really bad about it because I felt so guilty because I'd really wanted to try but the health visiter was lovely about things, she explained that if it was guilt I was feeling then it's normal and she said to my OH that he should allow me to talk about whatevers bothering me because it's tough for some women to deal with that feeling of not being able to do what is an animal/motherly instinct.
I'm not feeling as guilty, but I still do sometimes and it does get me to a point where I purposely stimulate my breasts to keep the milk there because its like if I leave them and the milk goes, then I just will feel so much worse. I know I'm meant to leave them, but I just can't seem to right now. Maybe I'm weird but I just don't want to admit defeat just yet I guess even though I know me breastfeeding won't happen now as he's so used to the bottle, he won't know how to suckle from me properly as a nipple and a bottle teat are different.
Hopefully moving house in the next week or so, moving to Kent and I'm really looking forward to it. OH found a lovely 2 bed house on gumtree and we fell in love with it when we went to view it, so we got first refusal on it and we signed our tenancy agreement last week and I'm just looking forward to moving in and being a family there as we've been living with OH's mum in her one bed bungalow for over a year and it's really no place to be raising a baby. The new place is in a lovely area so yeah, I'm really excited.
Hope you ladies are all well
xxx